I am happy to report, though that my MM has now been cleared to have the catheter PICC line removed. An MRI showed that the abscess has shrunk. At first the doctors were not sure if the due to where the abscess was near his spinal cord. At this point he still has the catheter in, but will be getting it out in three days’ time. He will return to work a couple of days after that.
I keep telling him I’m going to go through withdrawal because of all the time we’ve spent talking. Unfortunately, I was not able to go visit him due to his exhaustion and pain. We are hoping to get together real soon because we have been driving each other into a frenzy with our sexting.
At this moment I am feeling rather vulnerable. I am lonely and just want him. Permanently. I know I have said in the past that I was past the point of needing him in my life, but that doesn’t mean I still don’t want him. And to be truthful, I probably really do need him.
It’s hard for me to look ahead with a positive outlook. I have a lot going for me and I know that but I just feel empty inside. Alone. Bored. Not sure what to do with my life from here on.
In the first of my series of the collaboration of Funzze.com, I chose their Vibrating Anal Bead set and I am glad I did.
This is a fun toy. The sheer length of it is a definite challenge. I was able to get most of it inserted but I could not get the curve of the guard seated, so I was millimeters away from taking the whole thing. The description in the Funzze website says that this toy has 5.5 inches on insertable length (it has now been corrected) but I found it to be closer to 7.75 inches. Including the handle, there is over 11 inches of toy.
Also in the description on the website:
“Anal beads are a classic, essential sex toy in any collection, but this silicone wand features 10 patterns of vibration, so that you can massage your insides! With 3 powerful motors and an extra-long shaft, this anal vibrator is sure to rock your world! The beads are USB rechargeable, so you can use them anywhere, and 2 hours’ charge time will provide up to 60 minutes of play. This toy is waterproof, but should not be fully submerged.”
Having three motors is a definite asset in a piece this size – many large tots offer only one of two. Those toys are often underpowered and the user is often unable to feel any motion throughout the full toy; the vibrations are only felt in the radius of the motor. That is not a problem with this product. The vibes are strong and can be felt throughout the shaft.
A great feature of this is the five beads. Each large bead is a slightly different size and shape. The large beads also have unique ridges, each one different than the others. These ridges help rub and stimulate you even further. The tip is tapered to aid insertion and I found it feels “pointier” inside than it looks.
I liked having a “guard” on the handle or hilt of the toy. This gave me something to push against and helped insert it without having my fingers slip or slide. The buttons to control the toy are easily accessible in the hilt and are easy to figure out.
This toy does have one of my pet peeves, however – a magnetic charger. I would much rather have a push-pin charger simply because the magnets can be dislodged so easily.
This toy is a definite win, and priced around $35 it is a real bargain,
I would like to announce that I have come under agreement with Funzze.com to be a toy tester exclusively with them!
This agreement will allow me to do a monthly toy test on their products. Each month I will test a new toy and upload a review to my blog here. This agreement will last for at least one year. This will give me a steady flow of content for my readers.
I have worked with Funzze in the past and have enjoyed their products.
To read my reviews of the items I already have from them, please see:
It’s been a bit since I’ve updated everybody on what’s going on. I was really sick last summer into the fall and just kind of fell out of sorts. The doctors changed my medication and I’m finally doing well again.
I did get sick again at Christmas. I went to the ER on 23 December and basically had this really bad Covid/flu/whatever that’s been going around. I was down for 10 days which covered Christmas and New Year’s both. I’m finally feeling better from that and have gained my strength back.
However, over that same period of time my poor dog got really sick and I was unable to take him to the veterinarian nor was I able to get an appointment because of the holiday hours. Once I was finally able to get him into the vet, it was too late. He was experiencing kidney failure and was going into liver failure. So I had to Make the decision to put him down on January 4. He wasn’t even quite five years old but he had had problems with seizures and such since I’ve had him. He was also deaf and I’m sure he had other problems too that I was not really aware of. That kind of just sent me back a bit emotionally.
Then Valentine’s Day hit and I didn’t hear from my guy for a couple of days during that which really got me concerned since we still talk basically almost every day. He finally sent me a little message on Saturday of that week and said he was really sick and that was like all he basically said, and I didn’t hear from him again until the following Wednesday when he told me he had been admitted into the hospital the day before. He said he would be in for at least four days because they were doing blood cultures and they weren’t quite sure what was wrong with him, I finally heard back from him then again, Friday when he told me he was finally home, but he had a PICC line because he had to give himself IV antibiotics every day for 6 weeks! Turns out that he had a very serious bacterial infection in his spine and also has an abscess in his spinal column right by his spinal cord! And if the antibiotics don’t work, he’s going to have to have surgery.
So it’s taking everything inside of me to not run out there to play nurse to him
On the lighter side, I did get a new dog just this week. So far she’s been really good so I hope she continues on. She comes from a neglectful background because her previous “mom” had schizophrenia and is presently incarcerated. The women’s family took the dog in but they have two large dogs of their own and a couple of cats, so they were unable to keep her.
So right now things are just kind of slightly stressed, but not as bad as I have been in the past. My guy and I have been talking every day since he’s been home pretty much all day long. He gets very worn out though.
I am hoping to get more active on this blog again. Look for an announcement coming soon!!
I have gone back to selling panties and other things on pantydeal.com. I don’t know how long I will be on this site. I’m just checking it out again to see if it’s worth my effort and paying the fees that are involved.
I can see already that my attitude has really changed about the site. I used to be a little more sensitive. I see it more now as a business venture dad anything else. I am offering a service. I don’t have to do anything I don’t want to do. I don’t chat and I don’t sex, but I’ll do almost anything for photos or video
“Sex sells!” This is a simple two-word phrase that holds so much truth it isn’t funny. What’s the world’s oldest profession that still offers the potential for untold riches today? Prostitution! Although sexual exploitation has evolved over the years, the threat of the everlasting negative impact is still there. If anything, the potential for someone to be harmed by sexual exploitation is far greater. The simple fact that men worry about their members being too small is the perfect example.
The Emergence Of Male Enhancement
There is an entire industry built around people exploiting the fear of other’s sexual inadequacies. The available solutions can vary from something as simple as a specially designed diet or it can go as far as complex corrective cosmetic surgery. There is nothing wrong with wanting to look and perform at your best. Unfortunately, some people can get far too caught up in their worries to the point they become overwhelmed.
This is especially true for people who rely on public perception. It is not uncommon these days to turn on the TV or go online and see some kind of sexual male enhancement advertisement. Most people probably can’t recall a time when enhancement pills didn’t exist. These medications are miraculous and can greatly improve the quality of life but they are medication. All medication comes with potential side effects and simply taking it can do irreversible damage to the body.
The Truth About Increasing Ejaculate
Most men have migrated from worrying about the size of the members to worrying about the amount of ejaculation they produce. This is an understandable fear when you consider what ejaculate can represent. For many men, a powerful orgasm is about a lot of ejaculation. It’s not only an incredible sensation that most desire but it can be seen as a sign of masculinity.
While this might be true, men need to understand that increasing ejaculation does not necessarily increase potency. Just because your loads are larger doesn’t mean you’re actually increasing the sperm count. Sperm and Semen come from two different parts of the reproductive organ. Sperm is the substance that fuses with the female sexual organs and leads to pregnancy. Semen, on the other hand, is a mixture. In many instances, increasing semen production can lower sperm production.
Natural, Easy, And Fun Training
Exercising is supposed to be fun, exhilarating, and exciting. Whether it is working out or trying to achieve multiple orgasms, the lack of real results oftentimes leads to many giving up. That is where the all-natural semen-increasing program is different. With this program, you’ll see the results so fast that you’ll be truly amazed.
Even better is that the training is easy, fun, and something you can do alone. These steps can, however, be practiced with a partner if you want to make them even more entertaining. With no special equipment and no potentially harmful medications, real people can start seeing real results in no time at all. It’s easy to stay motivated when you are getting real results. When your partner notices those results, it’s an entirely different kind of satisfaction.
Developed By A Real Man With Real Problems
There is nearly no end to amount of enhancement exercises, medications, and enhancement operations available today. The problem is that most of them don’t work. While that’s not the case with this training program, it’s the fact that it was developed by a real person struggling with small semen loads that makes it better.
There is no better way to understand one’s struggles than to face them yourself. That’s why this program not only far exceeds others but doesn’t become boring and routine.
Morgan Destera 