Transfer Post – More Disappointment

August 25, 2018

Again plans have been cancelled.

I was supposed to go see him in 2-3 weeks. Now his work schedule is full again. So we have to cancel – again.
I try to be understanding. His job is very demanding at times, and then totally dead at others. Even he admits this year has been hard to find free time. Hopefully, once this project gets started and he gets going on the road again (this is the first stop on the new contract, so everything has to start from scratch) things will lighten up. But that means another 4-8 weeks of waiting. And even more traveling.

Sometimes I feel he puts me off on purpose…

I am so down right now

REVIEW – Kuuval Vibrating Anal Beads Set

September 10, 2019

Thank you to Kuuval for letting me test this item.

This set features a bulb enema/douche, two different sets of anal beads, and a battery-powered motor which is supposed to be interchangeable between the sets of beads. It came in a vinyl drawstring bag for discretion. The battery is rechargeable, so no batteries are needed.

I must say right away I had problems. I tried charging it for a few hours and unplugged it overnight. The next day when I went to experiment, it would not turn on. I don’t know if it was because I did not leave it plugged in long enough, or if the battery would not hold a charge. I plugged it back in and left it overnight, for probably about 16 hours. When I went to play again, it worked fine.

However, the larger problem is that the interchangeable motor, when once placed in the lower tube portion of the toy, is almost impossible to remove. During play, I wanted to switch sets but could not budge the battery pack. I tried peeling the toy off of it, putting something inside to try to dislodge it, twisting, pulling by sheer force and it barely budged. I am very frustrated with this.

I did not use the bulb syringe. I don’t mind dirty anal and I have a much more efficient enema system anyways.

The smaller set of beads is the one I have the battery pack on. They inserted easily and the motor does allow several modes for vibration. For this, I enjoyed the Pulsating action more than the continuous vibe.

After struggling with the battery pack, I decided to at least try the other set of beads. I did like that this set had a grip which made removal easier. I also enjoyed the larger beads more.

All in all, I give this product 2.5 out of 5 stars. There is nothing really special about it. It would really benefit from having another battery motor pack or an easier way to transfer the one it has.

REVIEW – Adorime Woman Adult Massager

September 9, 2019

Thank you Adorime for allowing me to review this product.

The official name on the box for this item is the Waterproof Personal Women Adult Massager Toy. I call it The Clit Licker, a much more practical title.

The Licker came in a very nice box. It was impressive, yet discreet, with just the company logo embossed on it. Inside, the toy was nicely settled into die-cut foam, so it shipped easily with no rattle.

The toy itself is nicely shaped, almost ergonomic. I did not realize at time of order that the handle was an insertable dildo, so that was a nice surprise. It is rechargeable, with a magnetic charging point which makes it fully water-resistant. This is the first toy I have that has the magnetic charging port, and it was very easy to use, though it is easy to knock loose if moving objects around near it.

I cycled through the settings, finding the controls a little hard to press. It took a while to get the “tongue” to work. The dildo side controller was easier. However, once inserted, the controls were even harder to use. Perhaps a remote control would be easier to use. It was fun to watch the tongue flick about at first.

Once I started playing, I was impressed with the power of the vibe of this unit. It offered pulsing patterns as well as a straight vibe at different intensities. I had a hard time getting the tongue to work and had to take it out to look at the controls to get the tongue working. Once inserted again, I found it it a bit too long to both fit the dildo end in and reach my clit. However, I do have a slightly shortened vagina due to a complete hysterectomy at the beginning of the year, so I do take that into consideration. The curve seemed a little too much to fit both easily.

I took out the dildo to try to place the tongue directly on my clit, but had a hard time with the curve to be able to set it correctly. I pressed it up and could not get any sensation from it. Later, upon my second test later that day, I discovered that the clit licker takes a much lighter touch. If you press it too hard, it will impede the motion of the tongue. If you hold it lightly, just enough to keep it in place, it it a very nice treat. Add the vibe, even not inserted, but resting on your labia, and it is a real climax builder. Again, my strictest criticism is for the controls and I really think the addition of a remote would be a great asset.

Overall, I give it 4.25 stars out of 5. A remote would elevate this to 5 stars. I climaxed nicely with this toy and am eager to use it again.

A short video of its cycles will be available on my Twitter – @MorganDestera

REVIEW – LoverBeby Pulsating Dildo

September 6, 2019

First I would like to say THANK YOU to LoverBeby for giving me the opportunity to test their products. However, I will not be giving high ratings just because I received the item. I will always be honest in my reviews.

I was given the “Realistic Dildo Thrusting G-Spot Remote Control Vibrator”. I think a shorter name and easier way to search for this product would help.

The packaging was nice and discreet. I opened it to find the remote took an odd-sized battery (single A) for the remote. I worried about finding one, but noticed a bit later a battery was included. The dildo itself was partially charged, which meant I could test it right away. I had fun watching the different cycles, as it thrusted and ground. The mechanics were slightly noisy, and definitely distracting. But it was fun to watch. The skin on it is one of the better “realistic” skins I have felt. But it is heavy due to the mechanical nature of it.

I was eager to try it after watching it’s motion. However, when inserted by and held in place by hand, it pushed out against my hand rather than up and into my vagina. I tried all modes and speeds, but did not get much pleasure from it. Again, the noise was distracting, maybe because I was disappointed in it.

I tried bracing the base against the bed and straddling it. It was slightly better, but the bed offered too little solid underneath it.

Later, I decided to try it anally. After a frustrating few moments trying to get it to stick to the shower wall, I was able to insert it. A nice size, but ultimately it was too heavy to remain suctioned to the wall. The thrusting action was more of a grind in the butt, but more satisfying than it was vaginally.

Afterwards, I suctioned it to the toilet seat and straddled it vaginally again. The more solid seat offered better leverage, but the thrust turned into more of a circular motion. It did little for me. It was better than bracing against the bed or being held by hand.

All in all, I give it 3 out of 5. The size and skin are definite pluses, but the weak action once inserted and the even weaker suction cup leave a lot to be desired. I enjoyed watching it work more than having it inside.

 

** PLEASE NOTE – There is a short video of it’s action on my Twitter @morgandestera

Deeper

August 28, 2019

Since we talked last week I have been sending him longer videos that includes a bit of my life. The thing is, he is sending me better videos too. Like today he sent me just a little bit of work life, just him walking through the hall to the restroom, but it was nice to actually see a little bit of what he does at work. It also makes me wish I was there to spend it with him. It is really nice that it is reciprocated though.

I actually joked with him about getting a divorce yesterday. He mentioned something about being a rebel with a mortgage and I said well you could always get divorced and leave her with the house. He chuckled. Didn’t get mad or anything which I was grateful for. I don’t joke about his wife that often maybe once or twice a year because it was understood at the beginning that he would not divorce. But outlooks can change. And maybe since he wants to see more videos, maybe he’ll realize he wants to share those with me In real life too

Damn Him

August 23, 2019

Damn that man! The last three days we have been in almost constant contact. He’s been throwing little things out like how he wishes I could have a 24/7 live cam so he could watch me all day. (I told him he’d get awfully bored watching me surf the internet at my desk for hours), and that he not only wants my videos, he wants vids of me setting up and cleaning up too. So today I took a vid of me dressing. He’s seen me undressing enough, how often does he get to see me actually getting dressed? And last night we were up til 3 am just talking and laughing. Damn him for being married and unwilling to end it.

Discussion

August 14, 2019

A discussion on another board brought me these thoughts

Every relationship is different. Saying “once a cheater, always a cheater” is an absolute which does not apply in every situation. As I have said before, the day I met Rig he was meeting up with a woman that night to get a BJ. But he told me about it. I had no right to complain. I had JUST met him. I don’t think he has had others since we met, but I don’t know. Early in our relationship this would have bugged me. At one point I did accuse him and he said he didn’t. I believe him. And I do believe he would tell me. I can’t stop him. I just hope if this happened, he would take precautions. And would tell me. I don’t think it would bother me as much anymore. BUT not everyone is a serial cheater because they cheat once.

Guilt yes. He is plagued with guilt i think. Sometimes I feel he holds me at arm’s length when it comes to meeting up. But he does have a crazy schedule too. He has expressed his feelings for his wife – loves her due to history (sort of like me and my ex) but not IN LOVE. More for the kids’ sake

Which brings up step-parent. On my side, my son is grown and he knows about Rig. They have never met, though. My kid probably expects it at some point. Rig’s kids are 13 and 15. And with his work situation he doesn’t see them as often as he’d like. Although he did have them by himself for a week for the first time on-the-road. I could adapt since I’ve had boys. I don’t know enough about them to know how they would react.

Don’t know about therapy while going from an affair to a real relationship or marriage. I see a therapist regularly. With his schedule I don’t know if we could. Maybe online? I don’t know if he’d be willing…

Question

August 2, 2019

What do you think.

1. If you cheated on a partner, would you tell them?

2. If you were cheated on, would you want to know?

 

Answer:

I am single, but living with my ex-husband (caregiver). I have a BF who is married. I am not cheating on my ex (though he would think I am). And I’ve known since Day One that my BF is married. Do I want his wife to know? No. Do I want to know if he is with someone else? No.

It took me awhile to get to the point where I can say no, I don’t want to know. But it’s his life. He is under no obligation to me, though he does to his wife. First day I met him, he was later going to get a BJ from another woman. But I had JUST met him, so none of my business.

But he did tell me. And I think he would tell me if he did meet someone else. He does tell me when he sees his wife (he is on the road a lot for business and is not living at home most of the time, though family visits him every few weeks)

So…

July 31, 2029

So, the Catholic Church will not allow me to “Defect”. So I am asking for excommunication instead, on the grounds of sex working, having an affair with a married man, being divorced, and being atheist.

Plus, I am not “mister”, and they used my maiden name. Probably because I was not married in their church. Yeesh.