A Last Attempt by the Church

October 1, 2019

So, my Branch President stopped by my house last Sunday. I did not answer the door. This pi$$ed me off because I emailed him weeks ago and said not to visit. But he must have gotten the message. Today when I tried to log in to check my status on the LDS website, I could not get into the Branch directory. I logged in on my ex-husband’s account and was able to get in fine. Lo, and behold – my name is no longer in the directory! Finally! Success! It took them about 10 weeks from my first initial contact and 4 weeks from when I joined the lawyer’s site to be removed. Now I just wait for final confirmation!

REVIEW – Clitoral Sucking Vibe and Egg Bullet Vibe

September 25, 2019

This is a nice 2-piece set. I liked the color and it presents well. But I am somewhat disappointed in this product. With the amount of suction it produces, I expected better results. It might work better with someone else, but the clit sucker did not stimulate me at all. Perhaps I was over-stimulated from use of the bullet, which worked great, but did not manage to produce an orgasm from me. I usually enjoy bullet vibes very much, but I did not come close to orgasm with this one. But again, everyone is different.

The controls on the clit sucker need to be on the opposite side of where they are placed. They are almost impossible to find and click when the toy is attached.

All the different cycles of the clit sucker are fun. It attached to my finger through suction easily. The pulses and throb patterns are a little different than most toys, which is a good thing. Different rhythms are good.

The controls on the bullet vibe are easier to use. However, if it is inserted it would be nice to have a remote included. This would allow some fun couples’ play also. The long stringy rubber end is good to help retrieve the toy if it is inserted.

Overall, I give it 3.5 out of 5 stars. Just because it didn’t get me off doesn’t mean it’s not a good fun toy.

I will upload a video of it’s action to my Twitter, @morgandestera

Saw Him Again!

September 23, 2019

I was lucky enough to get to meet up with my guy again!

I got there in plenty of time. He was still at work. I kicked back, watched some TV (I don’t have cable at home so I don’t watch TV at home) and had a couple of beers. I prepped the bed and got “gussied up”.

He got back and immediately stripped down. Within minutes we were in each others’ arms.

This visit seemed much more relaxed. Probably the most relaxed we have been in-person with each other. It also seemed more intimate, meaning it seemed more than just sex. I always try to hold my feelings in check with him.But this time it seemed we shared more casual conversation. And we showered together for the first time – his room had a great walk-in shower so there was a lot of room. We cleaned each other and I shampooed his hair.

Our kinks actually timed up well this time. I guess you can’t get much more intimate than sharing body fluids lol.

It was just fun and serene. I felt no pressure to perform or to leave. It was relaxing and we crossed a couple of things off our “sexual bucket list” (which is more of a scroll at this point, lol.)

I MAY be able to meet up with him next week too. It may not be an overnighter. I will be visiting my son and he just will happen to be in the next town over…

But his schedule is horrible next week. So I hope it happens 🤞

I may write more later about this in detail.

REVIEW – Adorime G-Spot Rabbit

September 22, 2019

Thank you Adorime for allowing me to test this product.

This was an interesting toy. I am glad the listing online gave some instructions. It would have been nice to have a small insert in the box with some of these printed up, rather than have to go back to the listing. It’s shape was kind of baffling for a solo user. This is a great couples toy.

The biggest selling point is that it has three motors, one located on each tip. The motors are pretty powerful and the battery was still strong after over an hour of continued use.

Rechargeable and water-resistant are also good selling points.

The y-shaped end was very good while pressing one end on my clit, better than the longer dildo end. However, it was hard to hold in this position. My hand started cramping. The controls too, were hard to find and press. This toy could benefit from a separate remote.

It is a very versatile toy. I used the y-shaped end on and around my nipples and got good stimulation there as well.

I give this an overall grade of 4 out of 5.

REVIEW – Adorime Clitoral G-spot Couples Vibrator

September 20, 2019

Thank you, Adorime, for allowing me to test this device.

This was a fun little toy. But again, these companies really need to name these devices to make it easier to search. I call this my “Clip-On Vibe.”

The shape is evocative. You basically can wear it all day. Give your lover the remote and have them zap you when least you expected.

Both ends of this product vibrate so you can get internal and external stimulation. The various wave patterns can be cycled through or left on for long periods. I still had plenty of power in the battery after an hour of continuous play.

The charger is a magnetic port, which makes the toy waterproof. But you have to be careful not to jostle the wire even a little or the connection will be severed.

Small, discreet, quiet. This is close to a perfect toy. However, it was a little too long for me to hit both the g-spot as well as my clitoris, but again my vagina is shortened due to surgery.

Overall I give this four out of five stars.

A short video of it’s vibe pattern will be on my Twitter – @morgandestera

REVIEW – Loverbeby Vibrating Prostate Massager Flashlight Rotating Bat Butt Plug Remote Control Vibrator

September 18, 2019

Thank you Loverbeby for allowing me to review this toy!

But seriously all these companies need easier ways to look up their items. It would be better to use inventive names rather than descriptive terms that are used by every other toy and company out there.

First, this toy I will call the Bat, because it has a picture of a bat on the control panel. Why, I don’t know, perhaps it’s the fluttering motion of the vibe that is reminiscent of wings, but that is only one setting out of many.

This toy is a fun one to play with. It is universal, meaning men and women both can enjoy it. Men can use the dildo end as a prostate massager. The dildo end is quite inventive as it rotates clockwise as well as counter-clockwise, both on its own and as it vibrates also. I only used it vaginally, and it was very fun. I enjoyed it with a steady hard vibration moreso than with a pulsing vibration. Feeling it rotate inside was reminiscent of an actual cock. I can only imagine what it is like anally. I am sure I will attempt it at some point. I did, however, have a hard time getting the rotation motion to start while using the on-panel controls. You really have to hold the button down for a while before it starts.

The controls on the toy itself are hard to feel. I had to take it out and re-insert a couple of different times to see if it was working or if I had the right button. One button is for the vibration, and one is for the rotation. I had a difficult time differentiating between the two. Perhaps a small raised character on one side or the other could help the user tell them apart. The same with the remote control. A small raised dot or character could help tell the controls apart.

The dildo portion itself is striped with a few raised lines which helped make it feel more realistic. The whole toy is about the size of an iPhone. The covered charger holes makes it waterproof.

Next time I meet up with my guy, I am going to have him try it out also. While it did not really hit my g-spot, I can see where it might on a man. I think it is a toy made more for a guy, but it was quite pleasurable in my case too.

Overall, I give it 3.75 out of 5.

Short video of it’s action will be available on my Twitter – @MorganDestera

Transfer Post – Three Years

September 17, 2018

Today (Monday) marks three years when my MM and I first met online and started talking. Unfortunately our physical encounters are limited, we always have fun. I can’t say it’s been an easy journey, but it it is getting easier for me. The longer we’re together, the more I relax and open up to him. 

Unfortunately he started 16-hour days for the next 2 weeks today so I won’t get to talk to him, but we talked last night and I left him some “motivation” this morning. It’s kind of bittersweet that we can’t be together but I’d rather have him in my life, however it is, than not. He really has changed my life, my outlook. I’ve tried to explain it to him, and he does seem to understand, but maybe not how much I have changed. I just wish I could be with him more.

Saturday night he sent me a message. I hadn’t talked with him all week (he was working 12-hour days). It just said he was sorry he hadn’t been around and hopefully we would have time soon when he wasn’t exhausted. (We talked yesterday then). That struck me harder than talking for hours because he rarely just sends a quick note. That made me feel like he does miss me.

Just some ramblings on this special day


Transfer Post – Wanderlust

September 10, 2018

Sorry I disappeared again, but have been reading. A pretty good friend of mine died last Thursday. I couldn’t go to the funeral since she lives several states away. So that set me back a little. Saturday my brother “kidnapped” me and took me on an adventure that culminated with an Escape Room experience. I really need that day to just sit back and unwind and have a few drinks. But now I am feeling restless. I am so tired of waiting and doing nothing. Ex is giving me hassles about money and putting miles on the car, as usual. I just really really wish I could see My MM! I need some attention.

Transfer Post – Update/Disappointment

August 27, 2018

I am envious of all the ladies who get to see their men weekly or even monthly!

We talked a long time Sunday night. Another 6 hour session. Then he messaged me first thing this morning too, before he flew out to new city. Damn I miss him already. I don’t know how much I’ll be able to talk to him this week. His kids are coming in for the holiday weekend. (I don’t think the wife is, just the kids).

I’m especially melancholy too because one of my dogs is on his deathbed and I am so sad watching him. Makes me just want to hug my MM to pieces. He did express his condolences.

Transfer Post – More Disappointment

August 25, 2018

Again plans have been cancelled.

I was supposed to go see him in 2-3 weeks. Now his work schedule is full again. So we have to cancel – again.
I try to be understanding. His job is very demanding at times, and then totally dead at others. Even he admits this year has been hard to find free time. Hopefully, once this project gets started and he gets going on the road again (this is the first stop on the new contract, so everything has to start from scratch) things will lighten up. But that means another 4-8 weeks of waiting. And even more traveling.

Sometimes I feel he puts me off on purpose…

I am so down right now