Update to the Update

May 27, 2021

Update on my ex – he is still in physical therapy rehab. He has to remain there until his Medicaid kicks in to cover the cost of Assisted Living. He is adjusting well and now realizes this will be the best for both of us. Meanwhile I am running all over trying to get furniture and all the other necessities of life for his new place. It is a small studio apartment (all that Medicaid and SSD will pay for) so I am trying to make it homey for him. There’s also a gazillion things I need to do for paperwork – accounts to get changed over, insurance to deal with, coordinating and re-scheduling doctors. And in the midst of it all, I had to run down to my son’s (200 miles away) and take him to an appointment. This worked out, though, since I was able to then bring him back here to help with hauling and everything, as well as visit his Dad. I think things will start settling down once I take him back to his place over the weekend.

Oh, and found out my car needs brakes badly! It was very embarrassing to drive it with all that grinding. But it wasn’t giving me any notice or problems until I got down to my son’s. Of course. 🙄 Luckily I have my ex’s car to drive until I have the time and money to take it in.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-me-settle-my-ex-into-assisted-living-and-move?utm_campaign=p_lico+share-sheet&utm_medium=copy_link&utm_source=customer

OnlyFans

May 23, 2021

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Ex Update

May 12, 2021

The situation going on here…

My ex has had a series of strokes over the past few months. This past weekend he had a pretty serious TIA. He was in the hospital for a couple days. CT and MRI shows excessive blockage to the artery leading to his brain. They say it was a severe stroke but he is able to talk and walk and hold conversations. He is just slower and forgetful, but can usually remember with prompting. They don’t do surgery for this anymore (or put in a stent since its above the neck) and have put him on 3 new medications instead. This MAY prevent or delay more serious strokes but the way it is now, he is on a downward spiral. However, he will be starting PT and occupational therapy. There is a very strong chance he will have to go into Assisted Living very soon (not imminently, but within a few months.)

Oh, another big complication is his blood sugar is out of control, his diet is atrocious. Right now he is scared so he’ll comply but he’ll get tired of it and go back to his bad habits.

He is also “Parkinsonian” – has the beginnings of Parkinson’s – but the stroke issue is much more pressing.

If this happens I will have to move. Even if he doesn’t go into Assisted Living we may have to find him a smaller place with no steps leading up to it.

This also puts me in an awkward position because I am not his wife and legally I cannot do anything. Our son is his next of kin. And truthfully (this may sound harsh) but with my own health problems over the past year, I don’t think I can handle it.

If he does go into Assisted Living I will have to find myself a low-income apartment and do the best I can to get this place cleaned out. Which is a mess.

My Pornhub is going to be slowing down. I will try to get an upload once a week.

There is a new MILFcast (#5) talking about all this – https://www.podbean.com/ew/pb-zh3ju-1035648

Also on Apple Podcasts

TOY TEST: Sohimi Imitation Nipple Design Butt Plug

May 9, 2021

♥ Imitation Nipple Design: Adopting the ergonomic design concept, it is sculpted for a nipple shape. It is easy to insert.
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Again, http://www.Sohimi.com knocked it out of the ballpark! I really enjoyed this set! I wish they also came in larger sizes!

I must admit, I have been struggling a bit with anal toys, which in concerning to me. It hasn’t been all that long since I played anally. I should be “open”. I wonder if they used something after my colonoscopy to tighten things back up somewhat.

But I digress. This toy is a beautiful set! They come packaged very nicely, settled in their own special compartment. The crystal butt plug is clear. They can be heated up or put in a refrigerator to chill. Either way they make sensation play more fun.

I (unnaturally) went for the middle size first. I usually go large right off, but my aforementioned problem left me wondering if I could do large right away. I did not use heat or cold this initial time, wanting to experience the original first.

I had no problem (thank goodness) with the medium, so I immediately switched to the large. The bulbous shape made it a bit of a challenge, but in a pleasure/pain way. Despite the shoe, it is easy to insert and I had fun twisting it around after it was seated in.

The clear design also acts as a wide-angle lens, so if you are lucky enough to have a partner, they can use the device to take a peep inside you also. I can’t wait to get together with my guy again to use this feature.

I give this toy a 4.75 rating. Very nice and pleasurable. Easy to clean. It could even be displayed if one so chose, it is that stunning! My only desire is to make another larger set.

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The video to this test will be on my Pornhub account today – https://www.pornhub.com/model/markiemoo1138

Mood

May 2, 2021

My mood tanked about 2 weeks ago.

I was decent this past week, but Friday my mood started to darken again.

I have been very irritable and I feel on the verge of tears much of the time. I think I am frustrated about everything – I still feel stuck with my ex, my health hasn’t been the best since Christmas, money is always a problem, I haven’t written anything of substance in a while, I miss my guy…

I think most of all I am tired of taking pills and eye drops. Pills an hour before meals, in the morning, at night; two different eye drops three times a day. All together I take about 35 individual pills a day.

I went yesterday and got my nipples pierced, hoping to assuage the mental health gods. Usually a piercing or tattoo or new hair color gives me an adrenaline boost. Not this time.

I need to do something, but I don’t know what. I wish I could go see my guy; maybe some good sex would help.

I think I’m lonely too.