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It’s a difficult thing. I try to hide everything – all communication and plans – from my ex. My phone and iPad are password protected and he doesn’t know the passwords. But I also know that sometimes I push to see how much I can get away with. Ex is pretty oblivious to a lotContinue reading “Transfer Post – If D-Day Were To Come”

Wednesday April 6, 2016 Talked with my MM for a while yesterday. My brain in working again. Also got my tattoo – a cover-up of one that symbolizes ex-H to one that reminds me of MM but is still a style I would keep even if we broke up. Sent him pics throughout the process.Continue reading “Transfer Post – He’s Back”

Monday April 4, 2016 Day 5 of our temporary NC while his family is visiting. Again. Really its more than that because we haven’t had a really good conversation in about 12 days. I got to talk to him about 10 minutes last week total. (Sigh) At least I am not really overthinking – ifContinue reading “Transfer Post”

Saturday April 2, 2016 So far so good. I’ve been busy though I slept most of today (don’t think it’s depression, I think I am exhausted because I spent several days this week at my son’s apt. And did not sleep well there. I started to overthink a little, but shut it down quickly. IContinue reading “Transfer Post”

Friday April 1, 2016 I went back and read through some of our older messages. It made me feel better and reminded me of some things. I know he’ll be back. I just miss him. I only got to talk to him about 10 minutes since last Saturday. It may be another 6 or 7Continue reading “Transfer Post”

Thursday March 31, 2016 Just found out his family is visiting – since he is basically in his own back yard. (Sigh). Probably 5 days of no contact. I’ll be okay – been through this before. Just wish so many different things… Have to keep in my good place so I don’t start overthinking

Saturday March 26, 2016 So I get a message from my MM about an hour ago. He was apologizing about being out of touch and saying that he is busy and he just can’t keep up with everything. I told him there was no need to apologize and just stop in every so often andContinue reading “Transfer Post – Insecure”

Friday March 25, 2016 I love it when he messages me right out of the blue with a frustration or problem. It means he knows he can turn to me to listen, and I can usually get a laugh out of him. Right now his frustration is filling out customs paperwork for his visit toContinue reading “Transfer Post – Little Things”

Tuesday March 22, 2016 Just wanted to say I talked with my MM today and all is good. It’s my paranoia keeping me from being as happy as I should be. I even mentioned how I was getting to the place where I can’t go on indefinitely and he said he does want to seeContinue reading “Transfer Post – Renewed”

Sunday March 20, 2016 I kind of feel like an idiot, but really there was no way for me to know. I was feeling a little playful yesterday so I decided to flirt some with my guy. I sent him a bunch of stupid pick-up lines and then a racy photo over a period ofContinue reading “Transfer Post – Unsure”