Morgan Destera

Mid-October 2016

This past weekend was busy. My brother celebrated his wedding and I travelled to pick up my son so he could attend. Originally I was going to take him back on Sunday and then immediately drive up to visit my MM. But he cancelled – again.

So I was driving home from dropping my son off, and of course I was thinking about him and if all this is just a waste of time since we can never seem to get together. I was actually thinking of breaking it off …. and then this car comes by with Out-of-state plates and some bumper stickers. And as I go to pass it I see a sticker with his last name on it! Now, it is not a very common name, so I was totally startled. And the plate was from the state he is from…

I guess there is a guy who was senator from his state who was running a few years ago. BUT he is not active now, so this sticker is several years old.

I don’t know if I believe in signs anymore, but this was pretty blatant.

October 2016

I actually asked BF if his wife was okay because he has been sick and she was visiting this weekend… I want to make sure she doesn’t catch his cold! Ugh – I am such an idiot

And he’ll probably cancel on me because he is suck…

He better not! It’s been sooo long

October 6, 2016

This was one of those nights that makes me really wish he wasn’t married. Six hours of sexting fun and flirtation – even while he was at work. And photos and short vids. And intimacy too. The chemistry was churning. I almost wanted to cry because my heart was so full. Almost. I get to see him in 9 days…

He is NOT leaving the state without us getting together!!

Ugh. He drives me crazy. A few days of not hearing form him, and then POW – he steps up and shows me he does listen and cares.

September 2016

Because my brain rarely shuts down, I was up late last night. I was very surprised to hear my notifier go off while I was reading. I glanced at the clock – 3:00 a.m.! What was he doing up so late when he has been working 16-hour days?

He had gone out with the rest of his crew and was “drunk and horny”.

God it was a great night! Neither of us slept. We just sexted and flirted and sent videos and photos all night. We even planned for me to come up this evening since he is not too extremely far away… But later realized we would both be too exhausted by then (and he still had to work before I would make it there.

Next week, though… 😉

But this was one of the sweetest, sexiest nights I have had while being alone.

6 days….

March 21, 2019
I was talking to my guy for several hours today. During the course of our conversation, we decided I should use my Ben-Wa Balls. I do need to use them a bit more right now to re-strengthen my pelvic muscles after the surgery and just basically healing for the last 10 weeks.

So I popped them in. First thing I notice is that the lower one does not seem to fit in as well as it had before. I used to be able to fit both in relatively easily. Now the second one seemed dangerously close to falling out. It wasn’t really a surprise; the surgery had shortened my vagina a small bit. I finally got them both to stay. And I went to the store with them in. They felt different than they used to, but not uncomfortable.

When I returned home, I kept them in a bit longer since they weren’t bothering me. After I ate lunch,  I went to take them out. As expected, the lower one fell right out. I probed for the other one, and couldn’t even feel it! I thought maybe it had fallen out too, but it wasn’t with my panties or anywhere around. Surely one couldn’t have fallen out while I was shopping…

I went to the bedroom and got into a better position and really probed myself. There it was! Way up in my pussy. There seemed to be a wall of flesh it hid behind. So maybe my vagina wasn’t shortened too badly, but I need to strengthen the muscles back up to push more. I couldn’t reach my fingers deep enough to grasp it. I just pushed it deeper. I tried pushing but it barely moved. I used to be able to push them out with little effort.

I went into my toy bag and got out my forceps. From my angle, though, I could not grasp it with the tongs. I was able to move it a bit with a shovel-like motion, but could not remove it. After a rest, I tried again. I even used my Magic Wand to make sure I was well lubricated, hoping it would slip out.

After some research, I tried a few other methods to remove it. I crouched, I jumped up and down, I begged my guy to drive 10 hours to come help me out. He felt badly he couldn’t be here to help. But he got some awesome videos of my attempts.

Finally, after a short nap, I tried again. I jumped some more and then sat on the toilet. Finally! While peeing, the ball was able to push its way out – into the toilet. I had to go in after it. No biggie. By then, seven hours had elapsed.

But at least I know I need to use them more, and more importantly, know the best way to retrieve them!

March 16, 2019

This weekend marks a milestone. My MM is now my longest relationship, except for my ex. Three-and-a-half years now we’ve been together. My college boyfriend (if you can call him that, he never wanred to “be romantic” with me, but was happy to call me for sex, or when he broke his leg and needed to be picked up from the airport or taken in for surgery, etc.)

I can look back and see how much I’ve grown over the past few years. MM has made me a better, more open-mindedperson. I am not as quick to judge. And I have discovered how powerful sex can be.

Only about 6 more weeks til I see him again!

September 19, 2016

I wondered if we would make it to this mark, but the first year of He and I meeting and starting to talk has now come and gone over the weekend. I can see a big change in me – i don’t over think nearly as much as I used to or as deeply (i still do, but am able to keep it in check – no real “doom and gloom” scenarios). when he’s quiet for a few days i have faith that he will get back to me when he can (his job is horrendous sometimes and i know it is his first priority – even above his family – I helped him figure that out and let him know its okay to be like that.) I know he loves me. My only wish is that we could spend more physical time together. Right now I am content otherwise. As Guns N Roses say “You need a little patience…”

We spent hours talking and flirting last week before he came to my area. I really mussed up my panties and then mailed them to him at the hotel he was going to. A few days later – after some missed connections – he finally got a hold of me and sent me videos and photos of him playing with them. That man just makes me feel special and sexy, something I never really felt before. But I wish I could just lose some weight! My biggest problem right now is my self-esteem. But he has NEVER made me feel bad.

Labor Day Weekend 2016

Well, the Wife now has to be suspicious. I sent a message to my MM, thinking he was back at work, and his wife heard the notification and started giving him the 3rd Degree about it. I felt horrible when he told me! But he reassured me that everything is good and that he was able to be non-chalant and saying everything is OK. But now I know she has to be a little suspicious. I don’t think she saw the message – and the message was just letting him know I was home from vacation.

He has been really great the past few days. Made me realize just how much I did miss him!

Next week he’ll be in my area for 5 weeks or so! We are planning but his hours working will be horrendous – 16 hour days!

Talked to my MM for several hours last night. 🙂 He seemed relaxed and like normal. We got into some fun conversations 😉 and some major flirting

But now he has returned home for 2 weeks. The chances of hearing from him during this time are slim, but every so often he has been able to pull off some quick messages, so we’ll see. The kids don’t start school until after Labor Day though, so they’ll be around. They are going to get another dog since one of their two died a few weeks ago.

Luckily Iam going on a trip over Labor Day with my kid, so that will keep me from overthinking too much.

Glad we were able to talk for a while. 🙂