Transfer Post – A Small Problem

November 4, 2017

I was talking to my son (age 22 and not living at home) today and somehow my MM was brought into the subject. My son has known about Him since close to the beginning, but they have never met. They have chatted a few times on Skype though.

But something I said must have triggered my kid. All of a sudden he was ranting “I don’t like him! I think he’s a creep, and I wish you’d stop seeng him! I really tried to like him for your sake, but I just can’t!”

I was somewhat taken aback. I wrote to my MM and told him what happened and he said it’s okay, to let him take the blame. He didn’t care what the kid thought about him, as long as the kid and I were ok (meaning still talking, etc)

I have the feeling they got off on the wrong foot during one of their chats. I feel weird being in the middle of it. I told the kid that no matter what, I was still his mom, but that I trust my MM completely. I don’t think it’s jealousy on my son’s part (Him taking the place of Dad, since Dad and the kid have their own problems).

I was just hoping they would get along.

It was very sweet of my MM to take the blame.

TMI – Electro-Stim

 

This is basically the unit I have.

E-stim has MANY MANY variations. From a simple unit like this, to straps you can put around his cock and balls, to violet wands, to systems hooked up to car batteries!

I will talk about my unit since that is what I am most familiar with. Also I have played with a violet wand a little so I will get into that near the end.

My unit is very basic. Not only is it used for sexual play, it is basically the same thing hospitals use for pain control. TENS Units are basically the same and I know people who have bought these for that purpose exclusively. A few have discovered the “perk” of other uses for it.

I have used this mainly on my breasts. I was trying to lactate and this was supposed to take the place of pumping, not all the time, though. Before that, though, i was experimenting with it.

You can adjust the strength of the shock as well as how the shock is delivered – single continuous shock, pulsing, pulsing from one set of pads to the other, tingling, etc. you MUST have all the pads attached to your skin for it to work. Mine came with a bottle of special electronic applicator which helps the pads stay on and conduct better. You can put it on your skin or on the pads. Some units come with 8 pads or more.

On my breasts, I put two pads on each side of the nipple. This was one I liked the most. You can also put two on one breast and two on the other. It definitely peaks the nipples and makes your boobs swell.

Some people use it near their vagina as well. I was pretty natural hair down there, so i was unable to do so. I did put them on my upper thighs, as close as I could get, and had some nice stimulation, though no orgasm. You can also put them on his cock, much like I did on his arm. He said he would do it sometime. He was amazed by the spasms on his arm, and couldn,t imagine his cock doing that.

There are limitless possibilities with these, but be careful…. only ramp up as much as you can handle. EStim COULD potentially hurt your heart – and DO NOT USE if you have medical implants!

https://www.amazon.com/High-Frequency-Darsonval-Device-Listed/dp/B001VII87W/ref=sr_1_4_s_it?s=hpc&ie=UTF8&qid=1503357264&sr=1-4&keywords=Violet+wand

Violet wands are one of those medical devices too that made the jump to sex play. I am not going to get into whether it works as a medical device.

Basically violet wands are used in stimulation play, just like all the e-stim. It basically deals with static electricity. Imagine feeling static electricity playing on your nipples?

I used one once (while clothed) at a convention. It really did make the hair on my arms stand up. I brought it near my breasts and could feel the tingling through my shirt and bra.

It is one item I would like to add to my collection. They are fragile though.

DO NOT USE AROUND YOUR EYES – you are basically using ultra-violet light

Severely Disappointed

May 9, 2019

I am so severely disappointed… it was so close! I was even packing. He did message me Tuesday from work, as he said he would. It was very brief, saying how lousy he felt. I did not get mad or anything. I told him to rest up and feel better. He works long days the next 4 days and then moves again Sunday, so I doubt I’ll hear much – if anything – from him until next week. I sent him a “motivational” pic last night – but he hasn’t “seen” it yet (again, busy schedule). Our relationship is what it is. I just wish I knew what “it” is, lol.

BUT If we don’t get together next time, I think I have to re-think this whole situation and maybe confront him if he still wants physical or just online relationship. If any at all.

Truthfully mid-June should be a better situation. We should be able to have a couple of nights together….should, that is.

I just can’t seem to shake this lousy mood.

Of Course

May 6, 2019

…. and he just cancelled saying he’s really sick. And he’d message me tomorrow after his family leaves

Which makes me question – is he really sick or is he feeling guilt?

I’ll never know for sure. I have to take him at his word.
Next chance will be middle of June

Pornhub

May 5, 2019

I need funds so I have started a @Pornhub account. It is not set for Tips yet (not sure how it goes,  but I think you have to be a Model first, which I am in process). If you want to Tip DM me here or there and I will give deets. pornhub.com/users/markiemoo1138

“Just Sex”

May 5, 2019

Since I was asked about the “just sex” comment, I wanted to post this.

Yes my MM has guilt. I think mainly because of his kids. His exact words were “It’ll be a little weird for me spending the weekend with the family and then having you here a couple hours later, but I think I’ll be ok – As long as your visit is all about dirty fun I’ll be ok. No emotional, romantic stuff – I definitely won’t be in a frame of mind for anything other than kinky sex“. (Copy and pasted from our conversation). Every time we have met up he says the same. I have long ago accepted this. That’s why I pretty much know he will never leave his wife. I told him “As I’ve said before, I’d rather walk out of there knowing we’re still friends and can still have fun”. I’d rather have him in my life like this than not at all. I know I am in his head – and heart.

Coming Up!

May 3, 2019

MM finally got his schedule and it seems we’re going to sneak in a short stay. His family is coming in tomorrow and staying til late afternoon Tuesday. I am coming in Tuesday evening. He says it’s going to be weird having his family in and then have me come in the same day, so no romance. Just sex basically. Again I told him I’d rather walk out of there knowing we are still friends and can still have fun than to simper and whine. It’ll be a short stay. I’ll be leaving there Wednesday afternoon when he goes to work. But at least I’ll get to see him!

Transfer Post- Peace

September 2, 2017

As this longest time of reduced contact draws to a close, I am realizing this is the first time I haven’t really been overthinking or analyzing every little thing. I guess that means I’ve grown. I do find myself trying to be around for his normal times of messaging, or when I know he may be waiting for the kids to get out of school. But this is this first time I haven’t delved into misery thinking he won’t get back to me, or he’ll ghost me. I am confident he’ll be back. And perhaps I’d even be okay overall if he left (as long as he would let me know he was caught or whatever the circumstances may be). I have the feeling even if he was caught, he might come back someday down the road. I am grateful for this state of mind. I am almost at peace. Now if I could just get away from my ex.