Even More Censorship

July 7, 2019

So, “The Visit” is not searchable under Amazon basic searches. It can be found under Advanced Search though. Yet my other titles are searchable. This is maddening.

“I checked from my end to see that your paperback “The Visit: An Erotic Short Story” (ASIN B07TT7CSD7) is searchable under “Advanced Search” option.

“The reason your book is not showing up in the regular search results is because your book has been classified as an Adult product.

Adult products are suppressed from the regular search query on US, UK, FR, ES and IT marketplaces.”

We shouldn’t have to censor ourselves to remain mainstream. There is no underage/incest or anything in this story. And I even warn the reader in the story. It’s hard enough to market our stories.

Maybe writers need to protest the actions rather than change our writings.

Transfer Post – He’s Back!

June 27, 2018

I heard from my MM. Yay! He has today (Wednesday) off so he messaged me as soon as he got home at 12:45 am. Yay! We chatted for a bit. But because of the problems at his work and things getting delayed because of the accident, I won’t be able to go see him in July. Ugh! It’s always something! But we are planning September in one of my favorire cities – which is where we first hooked up three years ago. So that better damn well work out!

Also due to the accident, his schedule is haywire. There are going to be a LOT more long days for him. So I won’t hear as much from him either. This year has just been riddled with communication disruptions – first him being home from Feb. to April, then this ladt three weeks, and now the unknown. I told him to keep in touch as much as he can. And told him I’d be sending him “motivational” photos and videos.

Damn – why can’t things just smooth out and life be decent for a change!

At least I’ll talk to him more later today

Transfer Post – Another Update

June 24, 2018

I have been down in the dumps lately. My MM has been workng 16-hour days for the past 2 ½ weeks straight through, no days off. Its crunch time for him and not sure when he might get a day off. I did get a brief message from him apolgizing, and told him not to worry about me. I know he’ll be back, but it kills my mood when I don’t hear from him for days and days. Plus an accident (nin-injurous but structural damage) at his workplace may screw up our getting together since it has delayed his schedule by two weeks – what was supposed to start has been delayed. So his schedule is really up in the air at the moment.

I also found out two weeks ago that I was again denied SSI disability.. grrrr…. so now I have to appeal….and wait and wait and wait again to go in front of a judge again

The thing is, I don’t know if I have enough time for that. My ex is not doing well, not bouncing back at all. His cough is fierce and his energy level is still low. Tuesday we go to the lung specialist. Maybe I’ll know more then. My biggest thought is that if he dies, I am homeless…

Transfer Post – The Ex 2

May 20, 2018

A lot has been going on with the ex. He has had 3 out of 4 chemo treatments now. He is still home. He’s doing better, but not fantastic. We went out of state to see the doctors in charge of his case and came back with bad news about his eye. He may never regain full sight in it. The conjunctiva is leaking and covering more than half the eye on the surface. Surgery can be done, but The surgery that they can do is risky, and of course hey absolutely will not do it while he is flaring WG and because he could actually lose the eye because the cornea is very thin under the glob they have to remove. So it could puncture and basically deflate. Not a direct granuloma on the eye, but his WG caused the scarring which led to the cornea “meltng” (doctor’s words) which led to the stuff leaking.

I had to go get an ultrasound on my arm. I woke up last Sunday to find it really swollen and i could barely move it. Haven’t gotten results back, but it is doing much better now. Almost normal. I was so exhausted by Friday that after I got back from taking ex to chemo, i slept for 18 hours straight! And then took another 2 hour nap a couple hours later!

MM has been great through all this. He is pretty much the only one who asks how I am, and not the ex. (Others get around to it eventually, but the first question is always how is ex). We’ve had some killer sexting, which helps relax me. I had a bad show of low self-confidence today and he cheered me through it. I am so glad to have him in my life! Next weekend is Memorial Day here in the states, and he is meeting his wife and kids in New York City for sightseeing – the kids have not been there, which I find amazing since Rig is in NYC quite a bit. So I’ll be bored over the holiday, not hearing from him and with no plans.

Thursday

June 30, 2019

We woke up early – well early for me. Usually my evening meds have me sleeping late, but I did not bring them just because I did not want to waste the morning, and instead I did not sleep at all. Despite my lack of sleep, I was bright-eyed.

He got dressed to go down and have a smoke and asked if I was hungry. I am never hungry first thing in the morning. He went down for his smoke and came back up to eat an protein bar so his sugar wouldn’t drop. I teased him he better eat to keep up his energy. He grinned and said his legs still felt weak. We discussed my schedule, determining that I would leave when he went to work later that afternoon. I just said I did not want to drive through rush hour traffic. Though we weren’t far from the freeway, I know how hard it is to make sure you’re in the right lane at the right time.

While he was downstairs, I had gotten my suitcase of toys out and when he got back, we went thorough a few of the items inside. I showed him the catheters, and more things.

“So,” he said. “Are you ready to be shaved?”

This was something we had talked about, and had done on one other occasion. As I got on the bed, (the few wet spots had dried overnight. We put another pad down under me and I lay on my back) he went into the bathroom for his clippers, the razor, and a cup of water. We decided to use soap because we had both forgotten about shaving cream.

I spread open as wide as I could so he could get the nooks and crannies. The clippers tickled, especially when he ran them over the outer labia lips. My knees shook a bit. Once he was satisfied that things were where he wanted them, he soaped me up well. “I am a little nervous about this,” he said. The last time he shaved me, he had only used clippers. This was the first time he would use a razor on me. He didn’t want to nick me, and everything went smoothly. At the end, he took a picture and showed me the results. He had shaved my labia and asshole bald, but had left my mound hairy. It was a contrast and a good effect.

The he started toying with my newly-shorn lips, rubbing and inserting fingers deep. He played with my clit and added fingers as he felt the urge. He pressed on my belly, and I felt pee flowing from me as I shuddered a climax. “I bet you have a much better view,” I panted afterwards. “Uh-huh!” he hummed.

We got up to get a drink. It is important ti stay hydrated when doing watersports. Once he finished, I leaned in. “I don’t know about you, but I have to go to the bathroom,” I said lowly. “Where do you want to do this?” I was actually surprised I had to go after that orgasm.

At first we went to the restroom, him on the toilet and me straddling him. “This isn’t going to work,” he said. “I can’t see anything.”

So we went back to the bed. He kneeled between my legs, watching as I spread my lips with my fingers. After a second, I was pissing a full stream up high. “There’s your fountain,” I said. (My hair had always prevented a good high stream.) He stood and stuck his cock in the stream, then ran it up and down my pussy in the flow as well as the puddle beneath me. He pushed the tip into me, thrusting a few times, then replaced it with his fingers. Two, three, then another. I could feel his thoughts. He turned for the jar of coconut oil. I got up off the bed and went over to the toy bag. I produced the leather sling I had bought for just such a moment. I got back on the other bed and strapped it around my neck and thighs. I was effectively spread open without having to hold my own legs.

He lubed up his hand and my pussy. Again, we had discussed fisting many times and we were both anxious to try it. He inserted his hand carefully, thumb tucked in. I loved the stretching. I was writhing under him as he twisted and pushed, but in the end he just could not get his whole had in. I took a pillow, pulled the case off, and slipped it under my hips, hoping to help. He did get in a little further and thrust and twisted me into a screaming, gushing orgasm. We concluded that his hand was just too big. Working with his hands as he does, plus his long fingers, coupled with my recent hysterectomy which shortened my vagina a bit, he was just not going to be able to get his whole fist in. There was slight disappointment, but the orgasm he had produced overshadowed any failure. Perhaps it can be achieved another time.

I sat up and reached up to stroke his cock, then started sucking it. After a few minutes of sucking and licking it, I slapped his ass. “No, I want to lick your ass. Get on your belly, boy.”

He obliged eagerly. Suddenly his fine ass was before me. Fuck, but I adore his ass. I ran hands up and down over them a few times, massaging, feeling the tug of his skin. I parted his cheeks, and ran my finger around and around his puckered hole. Then I stuck my face down, licking it, running my tongue over and around it, sucking it and sticking my tongue inside. I pulled it open a bit with my fingers and rolled my tongue over and into it. It was my turn to stick a finger in him. I wet my finger with my tongue and slowly inserted it. He didn’t jerk or move, so I figured there wasn’t any pain. I drove my finger in and out a few times, then curled it up inside him. I could feel a different patch of flesh inside. “Is that your prostate?” I wondered aloud. He chuckled. I added a second finger, but could feel him tense a little so I removed it after a brief moment. After some more licking, sucking, and fingering, I asked “You want to try a plug?”

“Sure! As long as it lubed.”

I went to my bag and shuffled through the contents, looking for the right one. I have several different sizes and shapes of plugs, including a collection of glass ones he had bought for me recently. I haven’t even tried all of them yet. I found the one I was looking for, a simple glass rod.

I lubed it up, and told him. “This may be cold.” Then I pushed it slowly but firmly into his ass.

“It’s a very thin one,” I told him. “I’m sure your prostate tickler is bigger than this.”

I moved it gently in and out and worked up the pace, pairing it with sucking and licking around it. I ran a finger form my other hand up and down his perineum, as well as sucked and licked his balls. When I finally paused, I removed the plug with that little blip I love so much.

“Get up,” he said after I came again, and he rolled off. He adjusted me on all fours, and licked my ass a few times. He played, inserting 2 or three fingers inside me. “I want to try the big black one,” he said. “Stay still.”

I remained on my hands and knees. I could hear him rummaging through my toys. “It’s in a black velvet bag. You can’t miss it.”

I was almost scared, but also eager. This plus was huge. You can actually see it in the “Doing the Dishes” photo below. It measures 8” tall and 2” across at the tip. It gradually gets a little wider towards the base. He used copious amounts of coconut oil on it and on me.

I could feel it on my hole, pushing it in. I think I screamed. He stopped and asked if I was okay. I was, and was not, but willing to keep going a bit. I thought maybe the worst was over as he broke through the sphincter. But as another layer of the plug slid in, I thought my skin would tear. “I can’t do this,” I panted. He stopped immediately. He kept it in for a second, seeing if I would relax, but I knew I had reached my limit. Maybe with more practice and preparation I could take it in the future.

We decided it was lunchtime. He went out for subs and we ate, talking casually about inane subjects. I could still taste his ass on my lips. Afterward, he pulled out his little toy bag. I examined his urethral sounds. He had a few different ones than I, more like plugs. One had a flared end that he could wear long-term as it would not slip out. I watched intently as he plugged his cock. It had a ball tip, which I said cooed be very interesting to us, as I rubbed my thumb over it.

He pushed me back and rubbed the ball over my pussy and clit. “Can you feel that?” He said as he thrust in and out. I could! And it was incredible. It must be how a Prince Albert piercing feels on a guy. I loved him rubbing it on my clit. I am so glad I am multi-orgasmic.

That one really makes me want to pee,” he said, referring to the plug with the flared end. Although it is hollow, he removed it and stood in front of me. Because of our height difference, when I lay on my back on the high hotel bed, my pussy is right at hip height for him. He stood there, stroking, and then a frustrated look came over him, his tongue sticking out of the corner of his mouth, his eyes screwed up towards the ceiling. “Don’t tell me now I’m pee shy.”

“It doesn’t matter,” I said. “It’s bound to come out eventually.” He turned to his toy bag and handed me a long, wavy, hollow sound. I had never cathed him before and was nervous; I did not want to injure him. I took the lube and made sure it was prepared, then took his cock in my hand and threaded the end of the sound into it. I loved watching the hole open around it. I pushed it in slowly, carefully. I could feel him moan deep in his throat. It went in deeper and deeper. I didn’t realize how far it was to his bladder; mine was pretty close to the surface, but of course it had to go all the way through the penis. Then I felt resistance and knew I was at the sphincter of the bladder. I stopped, making sure he was okay, then tried to push through. My fingers were too slippery to get purchase on the hose to push so he took it and got into his bladder. I slid the hose in and out, never pulling too far so it fell out, but feeling his muscles tense and release with each stroke. I stroked him, as I pulled it all the way out, watching each little bead blip. Once it was out, I sucked him deep in my mouth. For really the first time, I could feel his enjoyment of the blowjob. One other time, a while ago, when I blew him I knew he liked it, but not to the extent he did this one. I sucked and stroked and licked and made sure I paid attention to his balls and perineum. I could feel him fighting an orgasm.

I was sitting on the edge of the bed with my legs hanging off, my body angled toward him. He was laying face up. After a long time of me ministering him, he reached for my nipples, hanging down near him. I moaned, and stretched out my legs towards his head. His fingers parted my lips again as he finger fucked me while I blew him.

He then pushed me on my back and used a short plug in my urethra. The look of concentration on his face was funny. The tip of the sound seemed a little sharp, but once it was in I was fine. Great, in fact. He changed out for the one with the flared tip which made me piss all over him and his cock. He was grinning so big as he played with his cock in the wetness. Then I felt more and I realized he had finally peed on me. I could feel the stream hitting my clit, making me gasp. It is an amazing feeling, warm and the pressure of the liquid kind of like a faucet open directly on the clit.

He used his cock to spread the piss , as well as my own overflowing juices to my ass. He flipped me over, then got on his knees behind me. With one arm braced around me he pushed hard into my pussy and then my ass. I was crying out in rhythm to his thrusts. He drove me up the bed. I was glad he was hold me to him. His head was next to mine and I pushed my head up against it. He thrust roughly, and one last, lingering heave had him coming in my ass. I also climaxed with him. We stay, panting for a moment, before he clambered off of me. I collapsed onto the bed. “Wow!” Again, I was lightheaded as I tried to get up.

“Talk about going with the flow,” he smirked.

* * *

Unfortunately, his phone beckoned shortly thereafter. After being on vacation the week before, and covering for a co-worker this week, he had work piling up. I told him I did not want to interfere with his work. He was regretful, but we decided that it might be best that I leave early, so he could get some work done and so I could avoid traffic.

I started gathering up everything. He went in he bathroom and “did the dishes” – cleaned up all the toys. It’s nice that residual poo and scum does not bother him. We are both used to it. He came out and say me collecting my things. “Are you going to shower?”

“I guess I should. I am a little sticky.” I could feel juices, cum, and pee oozing from me.

I jumped in the shower and then packed up everything else. He was getting dressed ready to go into work. He had stripped the bed of its makeshift protection and it had remained clean and dry. We commented on it, and he remarked how we had it worked out for next time. Although I was disheartened by his apparent hastiness – I almost felt like he was trying to get rid of me – that remark made me feel much better. There will be a next time.

 

Shenanigans

June 29, 2019
To recap my visit:

Wednesday I was supposed to have a very important meeting. I had been waiting months for this, and I was worrying about it to the point that I even called two weeks beforehand to make sure everything was still on. I get to the meeting place, find a colleague there from another 2 1/2 hours away, and go up to the office. The door is locked and the lights are off. Huh. I wait in the hall for my colleague and tell
him the situation. Frowning, he calls the main contact, only to find out the meeting had been canceled because the Lead moved away! No one had told us, and it has to be rescheduled to another date. He had another 2 1/2 hour drive back, for nothing.

I get back home, severely disappointed and angry that about the circumstance. I message my MM and vent to him a bit. After a few minutes of ranting, he sends me a nude, which calms me down, and makes me laugh. He is good at distracting me. Then he writes, “Are you still interested in coming up.”

I am shocked, just because we have had so many disappointments in scheduling our own meet-ups.

“Always,” I replied.

”When can you get here? Tonight?”

My mind starts racing, trying to think of possibilities. My ex, sitting on the couch in the other room, is the biggest one. It’s his car, as he keeps reminding me. As for money, my brother just gave me some for my birthday. Of course my ex wanted to use that on fast food, even though it’s a gift to me. But damn I wanted this trip more than anything. “Sure!”

“You sound unsure.”

”Just going over logistics,” I said. I’d make this work somehow.

We talked about plans for a bit. I misjudged the length of time it would take me to get there; I forgot the hotel was downtown – I normally go out to the suburbs, which is farther. I could feel his excitement over the line, as well as my own. I couldn’t stop grinning.

After some guilt tripping from my ex, I got “permission” to use the car, despite the fact I am the one who uses it 98% of the time. Overnight trips must be cleared, or any trip that hasn’t anything to do directly or indirectly with him (eg. grocery, food runs, prescription, paying bills, errands – any trips to visit someone, even my brother 20 miles away, or our son, must be cleared.) I told him I was going to visit a specific friend, whom I haven’t seen in a while. He knows her well, but does not have her contact information to check up. I told my MM I’d see him in a few hours, grabbed my bags that were still packed after our last cancellation, and took off. Three hours later – an hour earlier than I had anticipated – I pulled up in front of his hotel, handed the valet the keys to the beat-up junk, and checked in. Yes, he left my name at the desk.

After a bit, I got settled into the room. He was at work for at least another 2 hours. I changed clothes, and sent him a picture in just my bra. He sent back heart eyes emojis.

It’s going to be hard to concentrate on work the rest of the day.”

During his break, he wrote more, saying he couldn’t wait, etc. etc.

I prepared the bed. Now here comes the start of the nasties for those of you who may be offended with some sexual kinks/fetishes may want to stop reading. We are both into watersports – peeing. The bathrooms are usually way too tiny for any good play, and he is too tall to stretch in the tub. (I keep forgetting how tall he is – a full foot taller than I am.) Luckily this time his room had two Queen beds instead of one King. We could use one bed for fun and one to sleep in without having to deal with wet spots. Over time, we came up with a solution for this – strip the bed, cover it with plastic sheeting, a layer of incontinence pads on top of that, and then an old blanket
that can be thrown away. Another pee pad under us and on top of the blanket is used for good measure. Then this whole bundle can be rolled up and thrown away when done. It worked beautifully. The bed itself was dry and fresh.

So I prepared the bed, washed up, freshened my make-up, and selected some lingerie, as well as a butt plug, which for me is de rigueur. I was ready, he was 20 minutes from getting out of work. His job site was literally across the street, so I knew he would be here soon.

Then I heard the elevator down the hall ding, and I knew it was him. A few seconds later I heard the keycard in the door. Then he was standing before me. He looked me up and down, a huge hug and kiss and we walked into the main part of the room.
He took off his messenger bag and drank some water before taking off the rest of his clothes. When he was down to his boxer briefs he looked at me and said “You’re all gussied up. I feel under-dressed.”

“I’d rather have you underdressed,” I replied, saucily.

He came over to me, his hands on my breasts. He pulled one breast out of the low cup, pulling on the nipple. I sighed and held his shoulders, then ran my hands down his chest to his belly. I rubbed outside his shorts, feeling the length hiding inside, coiled and waiting. I rubbed it more and more as he pulled my nipple and slid the transparent blouse off me. He pushed his shorts down, and his cock was in my
hands. He always shaves, while he likes me naturally hairy. His smooth cock was so enticing I took it in my mouth and sucked it lightly a few times and stroked him while he hummed in pleasure.

I was always under the impression that he liked blow jobs, but it was not a favorite for him. I would learn during this visit he did enjoy them a lot more than I had thought.

He led me over to he bed and I clambered up on it. He pushed me on my back and fingered my thick bush. I know he loved my hair so I kept it natural for him. I had no opinion whatsoever about my pubic hair. He took advantage to take some photos of my panties and my bush, a fetish of his, with is cock tucked under the lace and a few others, like his cock inside me. He pushed his fingers into me, flipping his thumb against my clit. As he thrust a few times, twisting his wrist, I was already cumming.

”So soon?” He asked, grinning.

I chuckled. Then he was on his knees at the foot of the bed, parting my knees and licking my pussy.

That, to me, is one of the best feelings in the universe. His warm tongue caressing me, dipping inside, stroking, then sucking my clit is one thing guaranteed to drive me wild.

He stood, and pulled me to my feet. “Let’s get some of these clothes off.” He took off my bra, then unclipped the front of my garters while I did the back. Then the panties and garter was slipped off, and I remained in my thigh highs. He leaned over my back and helped me back up on the bed, on my back. He continued to lean over me, running his cock up and down my bush, dipping into my pussy. he laughed as he found my butt plug and I said “It’s expected of me,” with a laugh. He pushed up against it, then finger fucked my pussy. I came so hard I pushed the butt plug out under me. I also squirted pee onto the pad under me. I hadn’t laughed so hard in a long time. Non-chalantly, he pushed the plug back in. He leaned over, sucking the
pee out of my bush and tonguing my clit. Then I was flipped onto my back where he then and pulled the butt plug in and out, effectively fucking my ass with it. Now I love anal. This had me moaning loudly and I sank to my elbows. He pulled it out and I came yet again squirting more.

I reached back with my stocking feet and took his cock between them, rubbing the nylon up and down it as effectively as I could from my backwards position as he continued to play with my clit, sucking on it and making me writhe. One finger, then two and a third he put into me. He mounted me, but it was an awkward position since I was discombobulated a bit. Then he tugged me onto the opposite end of the
bed, stroking himself, and I was back on my back, legs open. He entered me, thrusting hard. I met his thrusts and rhythm and linked my legs around his back. Soon it was his turn to cum, pulling out and ejaculating on my bush. We were both panting, but I stayed in that position as he grabbed the camera and took some photos of the mosaic on my bush.

We were grinning and chuckling. When I got off the bed I was lightheaded for a bit as I staggered over to get a drink. We cleaned up, and I looked at the little wet spots (no huge ones but a couple smaller puddles), then pulled off my thigh highs and threw them at him with a giggle. I tugged on a shirt and went to the dry bed, and lay down next to him. He muttered how shaky his legs were. I don’t think I slept a wink, caught in an adrenaline/dopamine/serotonin high.

Tomorrow I’ll write about Thursday’s shenanigans. That’s when things really get nasty.