MM’s Back

February 26, 2021

And in full force. Every day, pretty much all day long. Usually a break around dinner time, but he usually jumps back on right before bed. For the last 10 days. I keep waiting for him to disappear again.

I don’t know what brought him back so hard. I’m definitely not complaining. I won’t ask. It’s been nearly a year now since we really really had a good open line of communication. Maybe he missed me as much as I missed him.Maybe he’s frustrated. Maybe everything.

I am so grateful he’s back. And as cheeky as ever. Lots of pics and vids and interaction. Planning on getting together once things lighten up more. Damn Covid.

Reading

February 19, 2021

‪I feel like my reading has really slowed down this year. I’ve only read 5 books so far. Last year I read 122 books for an average of 2.3 books per week. Granted, not feeling well since Christmas and having surgery has zapped my concentration and my time. I have barely written anything.

I also feel much busier for some reason. I’ve been to the hospital or ER four times so far this year for either myself or the ex, and that does not count in other doctor appointments.

I am finding it hard to find a book I can finish, too. I started The Stand (which did take up a lot of my reading time) at the beginning of the year, but have had to shelve it for a while. It just got to be too much. I am 70% through and got bored with it. (I read it once back in the 1980s and felt I needed to re-read it, as I have forgotten so many things).

I really need to get writing again. I had to cancel a couple of jobs, but I kept one I need to get done in the next week or so.

I need motivation.

Introverted Extrovert

February 15, 2021

I’m an introverted extrovert. I want to be outgoing, but am scared to be. I have been shot down so many times in the past. People think I am introverted because I don’t go to parties, etc. – but I don’t get invited to the parties in the first place! I have been in clubs and even the leader of clubs only to have membership and activity drop while I was leader. It’s hard to feel confident when things like this happen, so I just try not to get too engaged, for fear it’ll happen again. I want people to like me, but it just seems they don’t give me a chance.

Which may be why I have a MM. I thrive on the attention he shows me.

My Sex Toy Finder Article

February 11, 2021

Earlier this year, I was approached to write an article for The “My Sex Toy Finder” blog. I had a great time researching this and hope that this is the start of a great collaboration between My Sex Toy Finder and myself!

Please visit the blog here: https://mysextoyfinder.com/shane-diesels-realistic-dildo-may-make-you-weep-but-there-are-alternatives-to-his-dildo/

Not Feeling Well

January 16, 2021

So I haven’t been feeling well. I went to coffee with my niece this morning. Then I had to go to Walmart. By the time I did shopping and got back home I was feeling awful. Very nauseous. I took a nap and felt a bit better but starting feeling crappy again so I called a nursing line who told me I should go to urgent care. So I came back over to the local hospital and they put me in ER. Did covid test and CT and everything.

So I have a gallstone. Have to get an ultrasound on Monday. Then I’ll probably have to have surgery and will get removed. Covid negative.

Actually I think I’ve had this for years. Have had a lot of tenderness in the area for a very long time. Drs. always blamed my liver but never did anything about it.

So I’ll probably be out of commission for a bit. I apologize.