Introverted Extrovert

February 15, 2021

I’m an introverted extrovert. I want to be outgoing, but am scared to be. I have been shot down so many times in the past. People think I am introverted because I don’t go to parties, etc. – but I don’t get invited to the parties in the first place! I have been in clubs and even the leader of clubs only to have membership and activity drop while I was leader. It’s hard to feel confident when things like this happen, so I just try not to get too engaged, for fear it’ll happen again. I want people to like me, but it just seems they don’t give me a chance.

Which may be why I have a MM. I thrive on the attention he shows me.

My Sex Toy Finder Article

February 11, 2021

Earlier this year, I was approached to write an article for The “My Sex Toy Finder” blog. I had a great time researching this and hope that this is the start of a great collaboration between My Sex Toy Finder and myself!

Please visit the blog here: https://mysextoyfinder.com/shane-diesels-realistic-dildo-may-make-you-weep-but-there-are-alternatives-to-his-dildo/

Not Feeling Well

January 16, 2021

So I haven’t been feeling well. I went to coffee with my niece this morning. Then I had to go to Walmart. By the time I did shopping and got back home I was feeling awful. Very nauseous. I took a nap and felt a bit better but starting feeling crappy again so I called a nursing line who told me I should go to urgent care. So I came back over to the local hospital and they put me in ER. Did covid test and CT and everything.

So I have a gallstone. Have to get an ultrasound on Monday. Then I’ll probably have to have surgery and will get removed. Covid negative.

Actually I think I’ve had this for years. Have had a lot of tenderness in the area for a very long time. Drs. always blamed my liver but never did anything about it.

So I’ll probably be out of commission for a bit. I apologize.

My 2020 Wrap Up

January 4, 2020

Professionally:

* 78 completed jobs on Fiverr.com

* 60 5-star ratings

* 12 jobs completed off site

This was despite Covid as well as my Chronic Myelocytic Leukemia diagnosis.

I would have done more had I felt up to it.

For 2021 I have already completed 2 short Fiverr jobs as well as an article off site. I am not sure the off site job will be accepted however, but I did complete it.

Personally:

2020 was a struggle. Between Covid, my MM moving and his isolation, my CML diagnosis, and my ex and his problems, I had more challenges than I felt I could deal with. However, mentally I am in a better state right now than I have been in for years. I am not sure how that happened. I still have many emotional scars and mental disturbances, don’t get me wrong, but I feel more stable. I believe my dog has helped me cope, as well as the foundation my MM laid for me. He keeps coming back, and that gives me hope.

May 2021 be a better year for all of us!

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