Morgan Destera

“Champagne Supernova”
16×20”
Mixed media
The cloth “petals/rays” are made from the crotch panels of worn-out panties underwear

https://morgandestera.etsy.com/listing/4377237604 #art #abstract #abstractart #artist #panties

September 21, 2025

Who would have ever thought we’d still be together this long?

He told me a while ago

(That was supposed to say “twin flames”)

I think I am more in love with him than I was even a year ago. Even though this year has been challenging for us to get together. I do have a trip tentatively planned to go see him in a couple of weeks so I hope that goes through. 🤞

It is frustrating though – I find my perfect guy but I can’t have him fully.

I guess I should just be glad I have him at all – which I really am.

July 24, 2025

It’s been 10 months since I’ve last seen my guy. We had two cancellations in the process.  I was supposed to see him in January but his W fell off of a stool and broke her leg severely and basically he had to take care of her for several weeks until she was a little bit more mobile. Then in May we were supposed to meet again, however, projects got in the way.

But now it’s July and it seems like we always have a July date. Maybe it’s a “this time next year” situation, but we always hope see each other before that. Plus, we are in constant contact.

The time couldn’t pass fast enough. The train couldn’t go fast enough.  But I must say this is the first time I haven’t had a delay going to there since the very first time I went. Which is great because we were both so anxious it was ridiculous.

When I finally got to the room, he allowed me just about enough time to put my bags down before he basically attacked me. He was groping me and kissing me fully. Of course I responded in kind. All I know is that I had an orgasm within the first five minutes of entering the room.

He was already naked when I got there which saved some time, but I was fully closed so he pulled off my shorts, but kept my panties on because he loves panties. He rubbed me through them and even sucked me through them. His hands groped me and ran all over. Especially seem to enjoy my belly this time. He played with it almost constantly – just kneading it and grabbing handfuls of it and rubbing his hands over it. My breasts also got a lot of attention and I came home with several large bruises on both of them.

I really can’t remember in what order everything happened. But I know I was squirting and pissing all over the place, and he was sucking it up and licking and probing, and he had hisf cock in and out of me so many times. He had his hand in there too really desperately trying to fist me, but I don’t think he got all the way in. I think he got four fingers in, but that was about the extent of it. I don’t think he’ll ever be able to get all five into my pussy – I think I’m just too small for that. However, my ass is another story. I think with a lot of work we could do it but we need more time. I know he spanked my ass a few times, which I loved.

It was really a great night. After several (hundred) orgasms he let me rest and he just held me, which is something he normally does not do. I was in bliss. I mean, that’s all I ever really wanted. I haven’t felt so secure and happy in years I felt loved. I felt adored. And then he attacked me again.

He finally came and we just held each other panting afterwards.

Again, that’s what all I really wanted. We did talk about cuddling a few weeks ago and I told him I understood that that’s not something he really likes to do or feels comfortable with. He said he wouldn’t mind it. And he showed me that this time. Maybe he’s touch-starved… maybe he’s ME-starved…

Even in the morning, we just held each other –  and groped each other in the process. But it was nice to be able to feel him pressed up next to me, knowing that he wasn’t going to roll away. Not that he ever did roll away but sometimes it just felt like there was a wall there between us. And I’m sure it’s just the way I interpret things. But even with that wall there, we were still very close. But now I feel we are even closer. As close as we can get without being Mr. and Mrs.

Damn, it’s all I ever want from him. Just his presence in my life. 

And maybe the fact that we weren’t recording video or even taking pictures this whole time. I felt that this was our own little realm. There is no one else looking in on us. We could just be ourselves. I wouldn’t have to block him out in order to upload it. It was just he and I.

The day I left, we also did some cuddling and gave him a big blowjob before he just ravaged me again. My legs straight in the air up his chest, his hands under my hips, holding me up as he slammed hard into me. It didn’t take long and we were both climaxing. My pussy and ass are still raw from all of it.

“You’re sending me to work tired again,” he teased.

And unfortunately, he had to go. He showered dressed, and I rubbed his back a bit and give him a kiss. And then it was time. 

It’s always so hard to leave. I’m to the point now where I can walk out and not look back, but I always want to. I always just want to stay, but I know I can’t. I just hope someday he’ll come to the realization that we are much happier together than we are apart. I think he knows that but he just can’t do anything about it. I don’t think it’s a won’t do anything about it at this point – I think it’s a can’t. 

He knows I’m there for him. He knows I love him. That’s what matters.

And unfortunately, for the next 12 weeks he does not have a day off due to a HUGE project at his job. This has been coming for a while and he warned me about it months ago. He did tell me he will take a couple personal days during that time and I told him he better. But he knows I’m there for him and I will send him “motivation.”

I worry about him. 

June 20, 2025

There has been one toy that has been very intriguing to me since I saw it several years ago. That item is an ovipositor. If you don’t know what an ovipositor is, think of how many insects and fish mate. The ovipositor is a tube-like organ used by some female animals, especially insects, for the laying of eggs. 

What is an ovipositor in a sex toy? It is usually a hollow type dildo in which you can insert silicone or gel egg-like objects to be deposited into a vagina or anus.

This may sound horrifying to some people, but I have been very intrigued by it since the first time I saw one in an ad. The idea of having something inserted into me just kind of titillated me.

If this does sound odd, it is really no different than having Ben-wa or Kegel balls in you – just the method of delivery is different. 

So when JulietToys (Find all sex toys Here!) approached me to test some of their items I immediately gravitated towards the ovipositors.

They actually have a few different ovipositors to choose from (https://www.juliettoys.com/collections/ovipositor-dildos) so I read through all the specs pretty closely. I finally gravitated towards this one: 

Once I received it, I realized it would be a little difficult to try this on myself due to its size, so I called up my friend with whom I tested the snake dildo late last year. He was more than eager to comply.

Once we figured out how to load the eggs into the toy (lots of lube helped), he assumed the position and allowed me access to his ass. One thing we were both concerned about was what if one of the eggs got stuck inside. Having that in mind, we only used one egg at a time.

The dildo itself is quite large, and we both struggled with getting it inserted with all the lubricant that we used. I struggled to get enough grip on it without losing control. It did slip out of my hands a couple of times. I also thought I had inserted it only to find out that it had not breached his anus. Eventually what I did was shoot the egg out onto the outer skin of his ass and then pushed it in with my fingers. He enjoyed that feeling and sat up to push it out of him. It really came flying out. His review:

One thing I read was that the eggs should be made of gelatin just in case it would get stuck inside. The gelatin would eventually melt and would be able to be expelled easier. The ones they supplied are silicone, so must be used with caution. One day I will make my own gelatin ones, as I would rather use more than one at a time. 

After I cleaned and sanitized it, I decided I needed to try it on myself. Again, I loaded it up and got two eggs settled in to it before I went to test it solo. The toy was a bit long for me to use on myself. I could not get enough “push” on it to have it enter my vagina. It was too long and I could not get my hand on the bottom of it to push. The sides were slippery with lube so I could not get good grip on it, just like with my friend. But I feel that these were my failings and not those of the toy itself. I did manage to get two eggs into me and that’s when I decided that it was a lot like using Ben-wa balls, only kinkier. I enjoyed “laying” them. One shot out rather quickly and surprised me. 

As I mentioned, JulietToys has a few different ovipositors available. This one just may not have been the right “fit” for my friend and I. I am curious to see if a different one would suit me better. The one I have is insertable about 8 inches and has 4 graduating “knots”. It is quite wide which is why we struggled a bit.

It also glows in the dark.

All in all, I think it’s a toy worth exploring. I rate it an 4.2 out of 5. You may want to try a smaller size to start with however. My one real complaint is that the squeeze bulb used to project the eggs into you is not permanently sealed into the toy, so it does fall out somewhat easily. Sometimes it comes out at inopportune times.

You can purchase the exact toy here – https://www.juliettoys.com/products/6-9-inch-ovipositor-dildo-glow-in-the-dark-dildo-ovipositor-kink

Above you can see a link to JulietToys’ entire ovipositor collection as well as to the site itself.

As always, you can view the complete toy test on my Pornhub – https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=6848d6f1b8c8d

This contains the footage of both my friend and myself. 

May 27, 2025

There isn’t much to say about this toy. It just seemed to be the same old thing just packaged differently.

One thing I will say that I did like was the rolling balls inside of it that made it thrust. It did give a little bit more texture to the experience. The description on the website however says that the tip “curls” to hit your g-spot. I did not experience anything like that. It’s just the motion of the rollers inside. As noted in the photo, the tip is angled slightly but I wouldn’t say it’s curls around anything.

I also liked that the handle was easy to hold because of the hole in it. But the buttons were just slightly off for me to access easily.

The rabbit sucker added to this also is nothing new. Many toys now have this feature. The suction is quite good, I will say as it has 10 different suction modes. It also boasts 3 different motors, one for each of its methods: thrusting, vibrating, and sucking.

It is a good length and has a very easy-to-clean skin which is always a bonus. The skin is soft yet supple.

It’s a good toy overall but nothing spectacular. Maybe I’m getting jaded by all the toys I have tested over the years, but this doesn’t seem to have anything new or innovative to it. Still I would not let chat prevent you from trying it. Maybe you’ll feel something I didn’t as each of us are wired differently.

Overall I rate this toy a 3 out of 5. 

Full video of the toy test can be found at https://www.pornhub.com/video/show?viewkey=68347c65231e9

The Rabbit can be purchased here – https://funzze.com/products/3-in-1-wiggling-sucking-rabbit-vibrator-with-rolling-beads

April 2, 2025

Here is another multi-purpose toy that seems to get the job done! This one is from our friends at Sohimi.com.

I have seen toys like this advertised on Pornhub and they always intrigued me. The flapper part seemed like a new and innovative way to hit the female G-spot. I was happy when Sohimi gave me the opportunity to try one for myself.

The toy itself is nice to look at and feel. It has a soft skin. One problem I did encounter was the placement of the control buttons. They were  not awkward to find and use and I feel they should have been on the top of the handle rather than on a curve at the bottom. This toy does have an app where you or a partner can control the toy. This may be a better option to use

Also sadly this toy uses a magnetic charger. As you probably know, I have a great to stay in for magnetic chargers because it is so easy for them to become disconnected. They are also somewhat hard to get the charger attached due to the polarity.

Unfortunately I was also a bit disappointed in the flapper. Perhaps because of my hysterectomy (no cervix so my vagina is slightly shorter now) it did not hit the right spot and didn’t do much of anything for me. Perhaps it’s better on someone else, but  I was not the ideal model for it.

The dildo/vibrator that goes with the flapper was good. It has seven modes that put me through the paces. I was surprised by the thrusting action of the vibe.

However, when I flipped it around… the lips – wow! The lips are articulated and move much like a human mouth. Once I got that attached to my clit, the movement and the suction were off the charts! I climaxed hard!

Overall I give this toy 4.3 out of 5. It’s a fun toy and very innovative but still could use just a little tweaking. I will use it again and I think the lips may become one of my favorites.

Video of the test can be found in my Pornhub here –  https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=67ec643b38aea

You can find the item, as well as others here – https://www.sohimi.com/collections/tongue-vibrator

#lips #sextoy #femalevibrator #sohimi #flapper 

“shades #5 – selfie”
8×10” mixed media on canvas board
#art #erotic #abstract #painting

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