Author Archives: morgandestera

April 2016 Mercury is definitely in retrograde. MM just told me his wife said she MIGHT be done in North Carolina sooner than expected and hat she said she MIGHT bring the kids to visit him — but she doesn’t know when she might be done or when she might bring the kids, or evenContinue reading “Transfer Post – FFS”

January 30, 2019 I started this journey because I was totally broken. I had to move back in with my ex-husband because I had nowhere else to go. I didn’t like myself as I was, I had lost my faith in a superior being, and I wanted change. I had been living for other peopleContinue reading “A Little History”

So, after work and after talking to his wife, MM went to the bar in his hotel. We were joking around texting and then he suddenly got very serious. I had actually forgotten he went to the bar, but it explains why the conversation got so serious. He suddenly said he felt guilty about notContinue reading “Transfer Post – It Is What It Is”

It’s a difficult thing. I try to hide everything – all communication and plans – from my ex. My phone and iPad are password protected and he doesn’t know the passwords. But I also know that sometimes I push to see how much I can get away with. Ex is pretty oblivious to a lotContinue reading “Transfer Post – If D-Day Were To Come”

Wednesday April 6, 2016 Talked with my MM for a while yesterday. My brain in working again. Also got my tattoo – a cover-up of one that symbolizes ex-H to one that reminds me of MM but is still a style I would keep even if we broke up. Sent him pics throughout the process.Continue reading “Transfer Post – He’s Back”

Monday April 4, 2016 Day 5 of our temporary NC while his family is visiting. Again. Really its more than that because we haven’t had a really good conversation in about 12 days. I got to talk to him about 10 minutes last week total. (Sigh) At least I am not really overthinking – ifContinue reading “Transfer Post”

Saturday April 2, 2016 So far so good. I’ve been busy though I slept most of today (don’t think it’s depression, I think I am exhausted because I spent several days this week at my son’s apt. And did not sleep well there. I started to overthink a little, but shut it down quickly. IContinue reading “Transfer Post”

Friday April 1, 2016 I went back and read through some of our older messages. It made me feel better and reminded me of some things. I know he’ll be back. I just miss him. I only got to talk to him about 10 minutes since last Saturday. It may be another 6 or 7Continue reading “Transfer Post”

Thursday March 31, 2016 Just found out his family is visiting – since he is basically in his own back yard. (Sigh). Probably 5 days of no contact. I’ll be okay – been through this before. Just wish so many different things… Have to keep in my good place so I don’t start overthinking