Morgan Destera

December 5, 2025

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October 12, 2025

What can I say about this trip? It was both exciting and disappointing. Exciting because that’s how you feel when you have the hands of someone you trust completely wrapped around your throat; and disappointing because you were expecting to be able to do it again during the stay.

I have to admit I was a bit bold in inviting myself to visit. This is an extremely busy time for him since they are still working on the massive project at his work and he is working two or three 18-hour days a week. He really hasn’t had a day off in weeks. But I did give him the option to say no. He didn’t, and he seemed to be as excited as I was for the visit.

There was one little hitch he had warned me about ahead of time — he would have to go back home on one of the nights I was in town because his wife needed something done. That’s one of the problems of being “the other woman,” you sacrifice your time with him for OpSec – and there really isn’t anything you can do about it if you want to keep them in your life.

But the night I did get into town, he was able to spend with me. He came right after work. I had told him that I would not attack him because he had just come off of a long shift due to the project and I wasn’t sure if he would have the energy to do anything or not so I left it up to him to call the shots. When he got into the room, he immediately started undressing, and I knew it was on when he took off his boxer briefs.

And man was it on!!!

I can’t recall what order everything happened in. He initiated it by rubbing my pussy through my panties. I laid back and just enjoyed for a few moments. He pulled them aside so he could play with my clit. That is a very sensitive spot and he knows it. Before long I was sopping wet and he was plunging his fingers in and out of me as my breath hitched and I started farting. It’s kind of a joke between us now that the farts are a warning sign that I was about to cum. My first orgasm was good, but I knew there was a lot more in store.

Before long my bra was tangled around under my tits and my panties disappeared. His face was in my cunt, lapping away, tasting my farts and my piss as I came again and again. He pushed me up onto my hands and knees and slapped my ass as he fucked my ass. He went from ass to cunt a few different times, plunging deep into both.

At one point I was facing him as he drove into me. Then one hand clamped around my throat. I gasped, not for breath but in excitement. We had talked about choking many times, but have never tried it. I wasn’t sure if we ever would because I know that in the past he kind of worried about hurting me. About a while back he did say he was no longer afraid of hurting me and that’s when he started spanking my ass when we fucked. Now I just felt his hand around my throat and it was scary and exciting both. I trust him fully though I know that if I needed to get away, I could. But I didn’t want to.

Later there was another point where he choked me. This time his grip was tighter and I did grab his wrist to pull it away but I think it was more instinctual than panicky. My mind was racing. I couldn’t believe it was happening. I loved it and I think he did too.

I know there was a point where we tried to 69 while laying on our sides. With him being so much taller than me (14” taller) it is a bit awkward. He had great access to my pussy but I could only reach the tip of his cock. I tried my hardest though. A bit later I was on top of him 69ing and it was a bit better. I could spit and drool and stroke him the way I know he liked it. Overall, he doesn’t get too vocal, but usually does some groaning when I’m spitting and drooling on him.

I know he came at least once in my mouth because I could taste it. He must have taken a little blue pill because he remained hard afterwards. I have absolutely no problem with him taking the blue pill. Some women might be hung up on it thinking that they are good enough because he can’t get hard; but to me, it’s just a chance to do more and have more time with him.

I know I was on my hands and knees again, and he was crushing me with his full weight on top of me. He was curled over me, his arms around me, pressing my belly. It was very animalistic, him just clawing at me. I came hard, my legs shaking. He pulled me across the bed on my back and continued to ram into me harder and harder. I was squirting everywhere. We both came hard, none shaking. He likes me on the bed with him standing next to it as it helps with our height difference.

When that was done, we both were dazed. I could see it in his eyes – the all-engrossing nature of us and the disbelief in what we had done. That was just for a moment, though. Once I stood up, his hands were on top of my head and he was pushing me to the floor. His cock was still semi-hard and I knew what he wanted. I sucked him into my mouth and stroked my tongue up and down his shaft. He put his hands on the back of my head and pushed me further. I opened my throat and took him, the pressure of him holding my head never relenting. I choked and gagged a bit and then I was sucking him dry even as I gagged.

Afterwards we just stared and each other in wonder. Each time we get together it just gets wilder and wilder.

The next morning, I bid him goodbye and told him I would see him the following night. I love waking up to him next to me. He had to go home that evening, but I had things planned to occupy my time. I wandered around Central Park and found Strawberry Fields and The Dakota building where John Lennon was shot only steps away from the park. I still have at least half of the park to explore it seems, the far end from where I enter and it’s just seems like a long walk coupled to the walk I have to take to get to the park itself. Yet the park is close enough to the hotel that I feel I can walk there.

That evening I had tickets to a show. I would really love to have somebody at my side during these things. I do feel rather lonely.

The following morning, I got dressed in costume (it was kind of humorous) to go to the comic convention. I took a picture and showed my guy and he chuckled and said he couldn’t wait to get me home that night and tear my clothes off. I took the subway for the first time because it was an easy ride to the convention center. Then I spent eight hours or so at the convention. Between all that walking and going through Central Park yesterday, my legs were killing me. My toes were also getting raw despite the Band-Aids I had put on preventively.

I got back to the hotel and message my guy to let him know I was back safely. A few moments later, he replied saying that he just got the news that he had to go back home again that night and I wouldn’t be seeing him. From what he said there is an electrician coming to his house and he needed to be there to show the electrician what needed to be done. That took the wind out of my sails. He said he was disappointed too, but at least we had had the one night together. And it was a very good night.

And again, I really wonder sometimes if he’s just making these excuses up because he feels guilty. I know a few things were legit, like his wife breaking her leg earlier this year because he sent me photos the x-rays. But when little things like this happen at the last minute I just get suspicious.

It wasn’t fun staying in our room by myself

The next day I had to leave. He had set a late late check out for me so that was nice of him so I just didn’t have to wait around for my transport at the terminal.

I am back home now. and it just seems like he had been a little off since then. We have bern sending memes but not as many and it just feels off. He’s been quiet. And that ignites my paranoia even more.

We didn’t do any video this time because I didn’t have the camera set up. I wasn’t sure what if anything would happen that first night and then the following nights I was by myself. I only got one good picture of him during the trip. Even on my other excursions during my visit I didn’t take a lot of photos.

So I ran through the entire gamut of emotions. I’m still feeling down, and even a little scared. I’ll feel better when our messaging gets back to normal. But until then I’ll try not to worry. But my mind immediately goes to darker places. I can live without him, but I don’t want to and I know if that ever happened I would be devastated. And then I looked to the future and I think how much longer can we be together? I’m five years older than him and we’re both getting older. There will be a time when we sex won’t be forefront of our minds. What will happen then? Will we still be together? Will we still talk? Would I be able to visit him? It’s just all getting stuck in my head now. I think because my sister is extremely sick and is not expected to live more than a few weeks, the thoughts of my mortality come into play. I’m not the healthiest person in the world. I do have chronic leukemia, but they say that is treatable — however, the treatments are harsh and have affected my body.

Memento mori

“Champagne Supernova”
16×20”
Mixed media
The cloth “petals/rays” are made from the crotch panels of worn-out panties underwear

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September 21, 2025

Who would have ever thought we’d still be together this long?

He told me a while ago

(That was supposed to say “twin flames”)

I think I am more in love with him than I was even a year ago. Even though this year has been challenging for us to get together. I do have a trip tentatively planned to go see him in a couple of weeks so I hope that goes through. 🤞

It is frustrating though – I find my perfect guy but I can’t have him fully.

I guess I should just be glad I have him at all – which I really am.

July 24, 2025

It’s been 10 months since I’ve last seen my guy. We had two cancellations in the process.  I was supposed to see him in January but his W fell off of a stool and broke her leg severely and basically he had to take care of her for several weeks until she was a little bit more mobile. Then in May we were supposed to meet again, however, projects got in the way.

But now it’s July and it seems like we always have a July date. Maybe it’s a “this time next year” situation, but we always hope see each other before that. Plus, we are in constant contact.

The time couldn’t pass fast enough. The train couldn’t go fast enough.  But I must say this is the first time I haven’t had a delay going to there since the very first time I went. Which is great because we were both so anxious it was ridiculous.

When I finally got to the room, he allowed me just about enough time to put my bags down before he basically attacked me. He was groping me and kissing me fully. Of course I responded in kind. All I know is that I had an orgasm within the first five minutes of entering the room.

He was already naked when I got there which saved some time, but I was fully closed so he pulled off my shorts, but kept my panties on because he loves panties. He rubbed me through them and even sucked me through them. His hands groped me and ran all over. Especially seem to enjoy my belly this time. He played with it almost constantly – just kneading it and grabbing handfuls of it and rubbing his hands over it. My breasts also got a lot of attention and I came home with several large bruises on both of them.

I really can’t remember in what order everything happened. But I know I was squirting and pissing all over the place, and he was sucking it up and licking and probing, and he had hisf cock in and out of me so many times. He had his hand in there too really desperately trying to fist me, but I don’t think he got all the way in. I think he got four fingers in, but that was about the extent of it. I don’t think he’ll ever be able to get all five into my pussy – I think I’m just too small for that. However, my ass is another story. I think with a lot of work we could do it but we need more time. I know he spanked my ass a few times, which I loved.

It was really a great night. After several (hundred) orgasms he let me rest and he just held me, which is something he normally does not do. I was in bliss. I mean, that’s all I ever really wanted. I haven’t felt so secure and happy in years I felt loved. I felt adored. And then he attacked me again.

He finally came and we just held each other panting afterwards.

Again, that’s what all I really wanted. We did talk about cuddling a few weeks ago and I told him I understood that that’s not something he really likes to do or feels comfortable with. He said he wouldn’t mind it. And he showed me that this time. Maybe he’s touch-starved… maybe he’s ME-starved…

Even in the morning, we just held each other –  and groped each other in the process. But it was nice to be able to feel him pressed up next to me, knowing that he wasn’t going to roll away. Not that he ever did roll away but sometimes it just felt like there was a wall there between us. And I’m sure it’s just the way I interpret things. But even with that wall there, we were still very close. But now I feel we are even closer. As close as we can get without being Mr. and Mrs.

Damn, it’s all I ever want from him. Just his presence in my life. 

And maybe the fact that we weren’t recording video or even taking pictures this whole time. I felt that this was our own little realm. There is no one else looking in on us. We could just be ourselves. I wouldn’t have to block him out in order to upload it. It was just he and I.

The day I left, we also did some cuddling and gave him a big blowjob before he just ravaged me again. My legs straight in the air up his chest, his hands under my hips, holding me up as he slammed hard into me. It didn’t take long and we were both climaxing. My pussy and ass are still raw from all of it.

“You’re sending me to work tired again,” he teased.

And unfortunately, he had to go. He showered dressed, and I rubbed his back a bit and give him a kiss. And then it was time. 

It’s always so hard to leave. I’m to the point now where I can walk out and not look back, but I always want to. I always just want to stay, but I know I can’t. I just hope someday he’ll come to the realization that we are much happier together than we are apart. I think he knows that but he just can’t do anything about it. I don’t think it’s a won’t do anything about it at this point – I think it’s a can’t. 

He knows I’m there for him. He knows I love him. That’s what matters.

And unfortunately, for the next 12 weeks he does not have a day off due to a HUGE project at his job. This has been coming for a while and he warned me about it months ago. He did tell me he will take a couple personal days during that time and I told him he better. But he knows I’m there for him and I will send him “motivation.”

I worry about him. 

June 20, 2025

There has been one toy that has been very intriguing to me since I saw it several years ago. That item is an ovipositor. If you don’t know what an ovipositor is, think of how many insects and fish mate. The ovipositor is a tube-like organ used by some female animals, especially insects, for the laying of eggs. 

What is an ovipositor in a sex toy? It is usually a hollow type dildo in which you can insert silicone or gel egg-like objects to be deposited into a vagina or anus.

This may sound horrifying to some people, but I have been very intrigued by it since the first time I saw one in an ad. The idea of having something inserted into me just kind of titillated me.

If this does sound odd, it is really no different than having Ben-wa or Kegel balls in you – just the method of delivery is different. 

So when JulietToys (Find all sex toys Here!) approached me to test some of their items I immediately gravitated towards the ovipositors.

They actually have a few different ovipositors to choose from (https://www.juliettoys.com/collections/ovipositor-dildos) so I read through all the specs pretty closely. I finally gravitated towards this one: 

Once I received it, I realized it would be a little difficult to try this on myself due to its size, so I called up my friend with whom I tested the snake dildo late last year. He was more than eager to comply.

Once we figured out how to load the eggs into the toy (lots of lube helped), he assumed the position and allowed me access to his ass. One thing we were both concerned about was what if one of the eggs got stuck inside. Having that in mind, we only used one egg at a time.

The dildo itself is quite large, and we both struggled with getting it inserted with all the lubricant that we used. I struggled to get enough grip on it without losing control. It did slip out of my hands a couple of times. I also thought I had inserted it only to find out that it had not breached his anus. Eventually what I did was shoot the egg out onto the outer skin of his ass and then pushed it in with my fingers. He enjoyed that feeling and sat up to push it out of him. It really came flying out. His review:

One thing I read was that the eggs should be made of gelatin just in case it would get stuck inside. The gelatin would eventually melt and would be able to be expelled easier. The ones they supplied are silicone, so must be used with caution. One day I will make my own gelatin ones, as I would rather use more than one at a time. 

After I cleaned and sanitized it, I decided I needed to try it on myself. Again, I loaded it up and got two eggs settled in to it before I went to test it solo. The toy was a bit long for me to use on myself. I could not get enough “push” on it to have it enter my vagina. It was too long and I could not get my hand on the bottom of it to push. The sides were slippery with lube so I could not get good grip on it, just like with my friend. But I feel that these were my failings and not those of the toy itself. I did manage to get two eggs into me and that’s when I decided that it was a lot like using Ben-wa balls, only kinkier. I enjoyed “laying” them. One shot out rather quickly and surprised me. 

As I mentioned, JulietToys has a few different ovipositors available. This one just may not have been the right “fit” for my friend and I. I am curious to see if a different one would suit me better. The one I have is insertable about 8 inches and has 4 graduating “knots”. It is quite wide which is why we struggled a bit.

It also glows in the dark.

All in all, I think it’s a toy worth exploring. I rate it an 4.2 out of 5. You may want to try a smaller size to start with however. My one real complaint is that the squeeze bulb used to project the eggs into you is not permanently sealed into the toy, so it does fall out somewhat easily. Sometimes it comes out at inopportune times.

You can purchase the exact toy here – https://www.juliettoys.com/products/6-9-inch-ovipositor-dildo-glow-in-the-dark-dildo-ovipositor-kink

Above you can see a link to JulietToys’ entire ovipositor collection as well as to the site itself.

As always, you can view the complete toy test on my Pornhub – https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=6848d6f1b8c8d

This contains the footage of both my friend and myself. 

May 27, 2025

There isn’t much to say about this toy. It just seemed to be the same old thing just packaged differently.

One thing I will say that I did like was the rolling balls inside of it that made it thrust. It did give a little bit more texture to the experience. The description on the website however says that the tip “curls” to hit your g-spot. I did not experience anything like that. It’s just the motion of the rollers inside. As noted in the photo, the tip is angled slightly but I wouldn’t say it’s curls around anything.

I also liked that the handle was easy to hold because of the hole in it. But the buttons were just slightly off for me to access easily.

The rabbit sucker added to this also is nothing new. Many toys now have this feature. The suction is quite good, I will say as it has 10 different suction modes. It also boasts 3 different motors, one for each of its methods: thrusting, vibrating, and sucking.

It is a good length and has a very easy-to-clean skin which is always a bonus. The skin is soft yet supple.

It’s a good toy overall but nothing spectacular. Maybe I’m getting jaded by all the toys I have tested over the years, but this doesn’t seem to have anything new or innovative to it. Still I would not let chat prevent you from trying it. Maybe you’ll feel something I didn’t as each of us are wired differently.

Overall I rate this toy a 3 out of 5. 

Full video of the toy test can be found at https://www.pornhub.com/video/show?viewkey=68347c65231e9

The Rabbit can be purchased here – https://funzze.com/products/3-in-1-wiggling-sucking-rabbit-vibrator-with-rolling-beads