Piece of the Old Life in the Trash

December 18, 2021

I don’t know what to say. It’s confusing at times. My MM bought me a whole new bed outfit for Christmas. New slat frame and memory foam mattress. My old one was falling apart.

We were just chatting the other day about hotel rooms (he’s on the road temporarily to train his replacement- we were hoping I’d be able to go see him but he was working 14 hour days training the new guy. He goes home Monday and back to work on Jan 2) and he was in a pretty bad room and we were wondering how many people had slept in that bed. Then he asked me about my bed and I said it was pretty bad and I was hoping to get a new one soon. Then all of a sudden he asks me if I like memory foam mattresses. I said “oh no! Don’t you dare!” And he said “Never know what Santa might bring you.” Later when I told him how old my bed was and that it was the bed I used to share with my ex, he says “One more piece of your old life going in the dumpster.”

So today it came in. I felt accomplished that I was able to put it together myself.

It seems now that I am really single, he’s being more attentive. I don’t have to hide things from the ex.

But the one thing I didn’t like is he said it’s from “a friend who wants to make sure you get enough rest” and then put a winky face emoji at the end. What does that mean?

Men are so frustrating

By the way, there will soon be video on my Pornhub of me trashing the old mattress. it will be the first video of the New Year.

TOY TEST – Sohimi ALFA Sucking Vibrator Thrusting Dildo

December 12, 2021

This is the best toy yet from Sohimi – one I will be returning to over and over.

I think they have knocked it out of the park with their innovative tail/vine design. It makes the toys so much more versatile. You can stimulate various parts of your body alone or in tandem because of the length of the wire and the flexibility of it. Insert or just lay it gently on nipples, lips, etc. You’re bound to find somewhere this will feel good on you.

This clit licker is very fast and very effective. This is the first time I can remember a licker getting me off within seconds of use. I got extremely wet very early and was cumming in moments. I was able to cum several times while using this alone. I would also like to note how quiet the licker is compared to some others I have tried. Once it surrounds your clitoris, it is hardly heard.

The thrusting dildo action too is fantastic. It is not an extreme motion which can often be a turn-off due to the utter ridiculousness of the sound and the visual of it jerking around, but instead seems to offer a good variation as you can switch between rhythms and modes.

I do wish it came with a remote, as the controls on the licker end can be hard to cycle through once the toy is in use. Also I would prefer a push-in charger rather than the magnets. But really those are the only drawbacks to this toy. This is a definite 4.85 out of 5.

The item may be purchased here – https://www.sohimi.com/products/alfa-sucking-vibrator-thursting-dildo-plug. To save 10%, use code DESTERA at check out. To save even more, go to my website, http://www.morgandestera.com and click the link for Sohimi.com and search for the “Alfa thrusting dildo” – no code needed (codes cannot be used in conjunction with the link).

To see the toy in action, go to my Pornhub – https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph61a811ac71e36

TOY TEST – Sohimi Rose Tongue Licking Vibrator with Egg

December 5, 2021

The design of this toy is quite interesting. Sohimi took their signature rose mold and added a moving “tongue”.

On the end of a flexible tail, they added a vibrating egg designed to look like a rosebud. Altogether, this is a strikingly beautiful toy. But one that could benefit from a remote control. The buttons on the rose itself are hard to find while in use.

I do really like the use of the vine or tail. This makes the toy very versatile. The bud/egg can held against parts or inserted into either the vagina or ass. In the past I have had problems with dual toys being the wrong length/size to be able to use both features at once. The length of this tail makes it much easier to pleasure two places at once.

When I first observed the licker tongue I wondered if it would be of an6 use to me. It seemed to move too slowly and I was very skeptical of it. However I discovered when help lightly to my clit, it got me extremely wet. When I inserted the bulb vaginally, it was a great enhancement. I later inserted the bud anally and was thrilled at how nicely it slid in. It was well lubricated by the juices it had me produce.

This is a very good versatile toy, much better than so many other combination items out there. I rate it 4.25 out of 5. A remote would be good for this, especially since it consists of toy separate functions. It also comes with a magnetic charger, which sometimes has a tendency to disconnect if not seated properly.

The item may be purchased here – https://www.sohimi.com/products/rose-tongue-vibrator-with-vibrating-egg. To save 10%, use code DESTERA at check out. To save even more, go to my website, http://www.morgandestera.com and click the link for Sohimi.com and search for the “rose tongue” – no code needed (codes cannot be used in conjunction with the link).

To see the toy in action, go to my Pornhub – https://www.pornhub.com/video/manage/ph61a6de8a1c909

Sometimes

November 23, 2021

Sometimes I just don’t know what to do with myself.

Thursday is Thanksgiving. I have no one to celebrate it with. My son is 4 hours away, getting ready to move even further away in early December. My brother (whom I have spent a couple of Thanksgivings with) is going on a trip. I was invited to come, but I cannot afford it. The same with visiting my son – I just can’t afford it.

And the man I love will be sitting down to eat with his wife and children.

Although my ex never really did anything for the holidays, at least he was a presence. Even if I wanted to, I couldn’t visit him because he is once again in isolation due to some odd ailment (e. Coli this time). And I don’t really want to visit him anyways.

I will go get a free meal from the community center and come home and eat in while watching the parade or the dog show. It will be quiet.

I never expected this at age 55. I expected kids, grandkids, meals like I had experienced as a child. A family gathering.

I’ll be thinking of my MM and doing the what if…

Today he told me he is not a romantic. Duh. Does he think I haven’t figured that out over the past six years. That he prefers to buy me panties to destroy. Is that a declaration of sorts? I guess it depends on the perspective. And sometimes I just don’t know what that perspective should be.