Author Archives: morgandestera

August 27, 2020 I’ve got to stop being so paranoid.His wife must be back to work in person at the office now instead of remotely. We’ve talked the last three out of four days. Just as fun and flirty as ever. I don’t know for sure if we’ll ever meet up again (although he saidContinue reading “He’s Back”

August 14, 2020 I heard from my MM today. I have to get used to the idea that I need to reach out first. I’m not used to that. Before the shutdown, when he was more free, he would contact me. I kind of left it up to him to make the contact since IContinue reading “Observations”

July 29, 2020 It’s been a while again since I heard from my MM, so I decided to consult a psychic online lol. I usually do tarot cards maybe once or twice a year (for entertainment purposes, and just to see) but I lost the link to the woman I used to use plus IContinue reading “Psychic”

July 16, 2020 I know my ex needs me and I’ve gone through bouts where I think I could live this way as long as I still have My MM in my life. I thought about telling my ex just today about my MM and telling him that I would stay here as long asContinue reading “Free Thoughts”

July 15, 2020 I’ve been able to talk a bit more with my MM and I feel more relaxed because of it. It’s kind of sad how much talking to him means to me. He is the bright spot in my life, moreso than my kid or my dog. He makes me feel wanted. HeContinue reading “A Little More Relaxed”

July 4, 2020 This is my birthday weekend. Talked with My MM for a while. Everything seems back to normal(except maybe hm being home and not getting to talk as frequently or for the hours and hours straight we did). He did mention “we’ll figure out something” when we want to meet again and thatContinue reading “Birthday”

June 26, 2020 Different Guy is pissing me off. He offered money for me to sleep with him. While I may sell panties, may have a Pornhub account, may be involved with a married man, those things have not made me feel like a prostitute. I don’t have any problems with people who do sellContinue reading “Kind of Pissed”

June 24, 2020 It was an interesting situation how we re-connected. Last winter he messaged me about a Craigslist ad I had running. When I sent him info, he recognized my email handle. He said hey I know you and then called me by name. He said we had talked before but I truly don’tContinue reading “The Different Guy”

June 23, 2020 Yesterday I decided to write to my MM and find out for sure what’s going on. With the help of some of my sex-positive friends, we made many drafts and came up with a letter: “Hey there, I haven’t heard from you in a while, and so I wanted to see howContinue reading “Relieved”

June 22, 2020 I was talking to this guy over the winter but he disappeared about the time all this COVID hit and before my diagnosis. He just started messaging me again. But I don’t know if I can be fair to him. My heart still really wants my MM. I feel so torn IContinue reading “Dilemma”