Author Archives: morgandestera

July 4, 2020 This is my birthday weekend. Talked with My MM for a while. Everything seems back to normal(except maybe hm being home and not getting to talk as frequently or for the hours and hours straight we did). He did mention “we’ll figure out something” when we want to meet again and thatContinue reading “Birthday”

June 26, 2020 Different Guy is pissing me off. He offered money for me to sleep with him. While I may sell panties, may have a Pornhub account, may be involved with a married man, those things have not made me feel like a prostitute. I don’t have any problems with people who do sellContinue reading “Kind of Pissed”

June 24, 2020 It was an interesting situation how we re-connected. Last winter he messaged me about a Craigslist ad I had running. When I sent him info, he recognized my email handle. He said hey I know you and then called me by name. He said we had talked before but I truly don’tContinue reading “The Different Guy”

June 23, 2020 Yesterday I decided to write to my MM and find out for sure what’s going on. With the help of some of my sex-positive friends, we made many drafts and came up with a letter: “Hey there, I haven’t heard from you in a while, and so I wanted to see howContinue reading “Relieved”

June 22, 2020 I was talking to this guy over the winter but he disappeared about the time all this COVID hit and before my diagnosis. He just started messaging me again. But I don’t know if I can be fair to him. My heart still really wants my MM. I feel so torn IContinue reading “Dilemma”

June 20, 2020 Ok, so I haven’t heard from My MM in over 4 1/2 weeks. 😦 I left a message in our app for him. It has gone unread. I wonder if he even has the app anymore. I haven’t been hounding him though. But I did somewhat stalk him a bit – IContinue reading “Pretty Sure It’s Over”

May 30, 2020 It’s been about two weeks since I’ve heard at all from my MM. And it was two weeks before that that I heard from him. He told me he will be moving his family in early-to-mid June (not that he was close by, but now he will be even further away) despiteContinue reading “My Heart Hurts”

April 15, 2020 Nothing bad can happen from a medication packaged like this, right? This sucks so much. My bro-in-Law (husband of my brother whom I am closest to) blocked me, as did a sister-in-Law. I guess I am attention seeking. Which leaves me with barely any support since My MM is in lockdown andContinue reading “Scared”

April 12, 2020 I haven’t heard for sure about my medication yet. But the medication has to come from a specialty pharmacy and the one my doctor sent it to called and said because of my insurance, it has to go through a different pharmacy. 🙄 Now it has to go through pre-approval and allContinue reading “Diagnosis Update”

April 6, 2020 Bad news and good newsThe bad news is I have leukemiaThe good news is that it is not the horribly bad type of leukemia.What I have is chronic, not acute. I have Chronic Myelocytic Leukemia. I will not need chemo infusions, but will be on pill-form chemo for the rest of myContinue reading “Diagnosis”