Tuesday June 14, 2016
I struggle a lot with depression. I was suicidal a little over a year ago. I think having Our meet-up cancelled AGAIN last week has seriously depressed me. I have barely heard from him since then. I have absolutely no energy and all I want to do is sleep. There have been no changes in my medications to mess me up and I was fine – great, in fact – until I got back here last week. I need something to look forward to and right now there is nothing on my agenda. I guess i should look forward to mid-August when he will be in my area for 2 ½ months, but without a certain day in mind, it just seems abstract to me. I know he is insanely busy – basically he is doing two jobs at this point – but… But what? I know i am really just on the sides of his life. His job is first, family second, then extended family, then possibly me. Argh. Seems we are all in a funk right now
Morgan Destera 