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November 28, 2019

Happy Thanksgiving

So, I am alone for the holiday without transportation. My MM hasn’t communicated since last Friday, and I’m feeling very isolated.

The ex took the car to go see his sister in Michigan for Thanksgiving. I am really glad he did. He needs to see them (it’s been years literally, until they brought the car to us last month, since he’s seen ANY of his family, much less this estranged sister). Plus I need a break from him. I am having a meal delivered tomorrow. But I feel isolated from my own family. Not that my family cares. Even my brother, whom I was very close to, has started to pull away since his husband got on my case last month about the whole car situation.

But what is really bugging me is that my guy hasn’t talked to me. Granted, hewas sick, yes. But he hasn’t even read my couple of messages. (I haven’t written since Sunday since I know he was on the road Sunday-Monday, and since he hasn’t readvthe messages I did send). I am assuming he went home for Thanksgiving. But this is the first time he didn’t let me know that he was going. Maybe he forgot, maybe he thought he did tell me. But since I am down anyways, it just stings.

EDIT: He messaged me today. He is still sick. He thinks it might be the flu. He is at his job, not home, but resting today. I feel better, but still missing him.