September 17, 2018
Today (Monday) marks three years when my MM and I first met online and started talking. Unfortunately our physical encounters are limited, we always have fun. I can’t say it’s been an easy journey, but it it is getting easier for me. The longer we’re together, the more I relax and open up to him.
Unfortunately he started 16-hour days for the next 2 weeks today so I won’t get to talk to him, but we talked last night and I left him some “motivation” this morning. It’s kind of bittersweet that we can’t be together but I’d rather have him in my life, however it is, than not. He really has changed my life, my outlook. I’ve tried to explain it to him, and he does seem to understand, but maybe not how much I have changed. I just wish I could be with him more.
Saturday night he sent me a message. I hadn’t talked with him all week (he was working 12-hour days). It just said he was sorry he hadn’t been around and hopefully we would have time soon when he wasn’t exhausted. (We talked yesterday then). That struck me harder than talking for hours because he rarely just sends a quick note. That made me feel like he does miss me.
Just some ramblings on this special day
Morgan Destera 