March 23, 2018
I’m still here. Last week and a few days leading up to it was very very bad for me. Almost to the point where I was considering hospitalization. Overthinking led me to horrible insomnia – and even my anxiety pills could not help. The meds would finally knock me out for a while, but I’d still be up in the middle of the night for a few hours before the drugs would kick in again (one dose, not multiple doses the same night). Even my ex remarked he could tell I was in a bad mood. But it was beyond that.
However, this past Monday I woke up and felt much better. Maybe I got some decent sleep. Somehow I just knew my MM would message me on Tuesday. Tuesday I was very mellow and waiting. He DID message me and we talked for about a half hour before his family returned. Since then, I’ve been okay.
Next week he goes on his family vacation. Luckily its only 5 days. Shortly after that he’ll go back to work and things will be back to normal. I am counting the days. About 10 to go….
Morgan Destera 