September 2, 2017
As this longest time of reduced contact draws to a close, I am realizing this is the first time I haven’t really been overthinking or analyzing every little thing. I guess that means I’ve grown. I do find myself trying to be around for his normal times of messaging, or when I know he may be waiting for the kids to get out of school. But this is this first time I haven’t delved into misery thinking he won’t get back to me, or he’ll ghost me. I am confident he’ll be back. And perhaps I’d even be okay overall if he left (as long as he would let me know he was caught or whatever the circumstances may be). I have the feeling even if he was caught, he might come back someday down the road. I am grateful for this state of mind. I am almost at peace. Now if I could just get away from my ex.
Morgan Destera 