Transfer Post – Insecure

Saturday March 26, 2016

So I get a message from my MM about an hour ago. He was apologizing about being out of touch and saying that he is busy and he just can’t keep up with everything. I told him there was no need to apologize and just stop in every so often and say “hi” so I know he’s okay.

But…

I know I’m insane. 5 minutes ago I was thinking what a good place I am at right now. Then it just hit me that I read his message wrong and replied wrong and he was trying to break up with me because of being so busy. I know I won’t hear from him for a few days because he is moving to Detroit this weekend for a couple weeks and will be busy.

Truly I know that isn’t what he meant. He meant what he wrote, that he was sorry for being out of communication. But my freaking brain takes this one thought and runs with it. Argh!!

Why do I have to overthink everything? And I was feeling good and it literally just FLASHED in my brain that he was trying to tell me something

ARGH!!!

I know I write these melting brain posts probably at least once a week. I apologize and thank you for putting up with them and for the support and feedback